Zero Tolerance and No Help

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ThePoetess

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Hi all,

I am new here and am posting to see if anyone has had an experience similar to mine. I recently moved out of London to a rural location because I was having very bad neighbour harassment problems due to the disabilities I have as well as mental health issues. Very loud banging downstairs and the inability of the authorities to solve the problem during two stressful two years lead me to developing PTSD. The authorities acted very similar to how they did in the Fiona Pilkinton case and moving was the only option.

In London I had suffered the London bombings but was starting to get over it until the new neighbour moved in with his banging and the stress it caused. I was also sexually abused as a child and have GAD and am bipolar.

In London I had a psychiatrist, and mental health social worker and attended a Day Centre with art therapies. I went for an assessment here with a mental health social worker and a CPN and I was offered CBT. I told them I had found CBT made me worse and that I did not like talking therapies. I preferred non-verbal therapies especially art therapy. They told me as I rejected CBT there was nothing they could do for me but that they would admit me as an inpatient if and when I broke down as they anticipated I would get worse without support. They told me they did not have the resources to offer any thing else and could not even give me a CPN or an advocate due to cutbacks. They also told me that they had written to my previous psychiatrist for my notes but she had refused to send then without my written permission.

The stress I was under moving to a new area without any support other than my carer was enormous and also put pressure on my carer who was having to look after me over night because I sleep walk and also have night epilepsy. About a week ago he cracked up and walked out on me. I was so distressed I spent the night looking on the internet for ways to kill myself.

The next morning I tried to call the mental health social worker and CPN who had assessed me but both were too busy to take my call. I was put through to the crisis team and it was only on voice mail saying the crisis team were too busy to answer the phone and would call me back if I left a number. I tried for over two hours to get through to the crisis team and was falling to pieces. I just kept getting the voice mail. Eventually I rang the mental health centre and asked if I could just speak to a human being, any human being and I was put through to a Duty Worker.

By this time I was cracking up and saying I was going to kill myself. I had raised my voice a little because I was falling to bits and was very distressed but also I am deaf and have not yet got the right telephone from Social Services so can come across louder than most people. I was really crying out for help. The Duty Worker told me that she would not speak to me further as I had raised my voice. She said she would talk to me when I was more calm and rational! In distress I just put the phone down.

Fortunately I had forgotten that I had an appointment for a home visit from my Housing Officer that morning and the door bell rang as I put the phone down. By this time I was a complete mess and was shaking and crying.

The HO said she would not leave me like that and insisted that she made a GP appointment for me and this happened about twohours later. She cancelled the rest of her days appointments, sat and talked to me and went with me to the GP’s surgery to explain how I had been when she found me. I was put on anti-depressants and sent back home alone.

I went to London for the weekend to get help from a drop-in trauma centre there that I had used when I lived in London and was helped enormously. They told me they would always do telephone counselling with me in a crisis or even just to chat.

When I came back to my rural town I found a letter waiting for me from the CMHT saying that although there was nothing they could offer me they would still like access to my previous notes. I told them I was not going to give them permission to have the notes if they were not going to help me and in any case I had already decided that because of their previous treatment of me I was not going to engage with them I have never been treated so badly in my life by any other mental health services though to be honest I only have experience of London one’s.

I will use the trauma centre, Minds services and my own spiritual faith for my healing as well as my new peaceful environment.

I am an ex-social worker myself and worked in crisis intervention with people with critical mental health issues and professionally I find the people I have encountered in the CMHT here absolutely disgusting. On a personal level I am resourceful enough to find alternative treatments for myself to heal but wonder how other people cope who are not as lucky as me in this regard.

When I was asking the Duty Worker for help I was not abusive in anyway I was just wailing and may be saying in a raised voice “Please please helpme. I am cracking up. I just feel like ending it all” and she made no attempt to calm me down.

I realise that staff are under a lot of pressure due to cutbacks but when the system cannot help a bomb victim with a traumatic childhood there is something wrong with it. And when a Duty Worker refuses to talk with someone threatening suicide it is time to wonder if that person is in the right profession.

The following week I met three ex-soldiers under the same mental health team who had also been told there was no help for their PTSD either, so I know it isn’t just me.

If there are any more cutbacks here in the mental health services here we will be facing an epidemic of suicides, a rise in crime, anarchy or all three.

Is this going on all around the country I wonder?

So sorry that this post is so long and that it is my first but I am just so appalled.

My very best wishes to everyone.

The Poetess.
 
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Sorry you have had such a bad start in your new area.It is very alarming that there are such cutbacks. This is only a suggestion but I would give the consent for the notes to be sent otherwise they can't know your previous history of need and treatment.
Hopefully the relationship with your new GP will be better and maybe when you are feeling less stressed you could go and talk the situation through with them and see if they can help you further.
Good luck with settling in.
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Poetess

i read all of your post, and feel that you were treated appallingly by your CMHT. i dont really know what to say, i am not feeling well myself, but keep posting here if you want and i am sure someone else will have some advice. take care.:grouphug:
 
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I've been thinking of moving from london, not much point if it's the same elsewhere, they say assertiveness can be seen as agression by those in authority
 
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ThePoetess

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Hi all,

Thanks to everyone who read my message and offered me help.

Ram or anyone else - if you are thinking of moving out of London for more mental health help I would check the facilities very carefully before you move. Fortunately for me I have specialist services that are offered in London that have a national catchment area that I can fall back on. I say fortunately because I can get to London and stay there for free.

I think the mental health services can construe assertiveness as aggression where it would not be seen so in other circumstances. Certainly when I was a social worker I knew of clients who were classified as "difficult" and "challenging" when all they were in reality was intelligent people who could think for themselves and did not automatically agree with the decisions made by those in authority!

Also in London the mental health facilities I used were based on what is known as the social model which I consider the more enlightened approach to mental health issues. Where I am now the approach seems to be the medical model which fundamentally I do not support.

I think there would have been a clash between me and and the CMHT around here even if I had met them in a professional capacity because of this but they wouldn't have been in a position to so easily label me.

Thanks again everyone.:)

Fiona
 
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I think the mental health services can construe assertiveness as aggression where it would not be seen so in other circumstances. Certainly when I was a social worker I knew of clients who were classified as "difficult" and "challenging" when all they were in reality was intelligent people who could think for themselves and did not automatically agree with the decisions made by those in authority!
Fiona
Sadly I have experienced that in other authorities too. I have also become distressed because of the actions of staff in hospital and been criticised for that (even though they IMO were abusing their position and weren't doing their job properly).

Things do seem to be changing a bit. I had a social worker who I used to argue with quite alot tell me that he learned alot from me. But he responded to my arguments by listening to what I had to say rather than taking it personally. My manner might have been quite abrupt but that is after of years of feeling mistreated in mental health services and not trusting them, but once he got over that and began listening to the words he became really helpful.

I wish more workers in the system would do the same.
 
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