Wow there’s a lot here already

[sadnessisafeeling]

So I won’t take up too much space until we can really connect.

Just that I suffered a lot of abuse growing up, and I reacted in a very unusual way in a situation with my ex and ended up leaving her and treating her coldly. I guess I was protecting myself, but this year I “came to” and regret everything. I’ve lost a lot and I don’t know who I am, but I just want to heal.

I hope I am capable of following through with any friendships that are formed here. I’m sure I’ll feel it in the moment, but I usually quickly lose urges as quickly as I get them. Feel free to repeat contact if I disappear for any length of time. I mean well, I just get lost sometimes.

I don’t wanna blame everything on brain damage from stress and C-PTSD or something; I wanna take responsibility; but also I feel alienated from myself and it makes me so sad.

Praying for you all. Praying for me.

 

[jajingna]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[UpnDwn1978]

Hi and welcome to the forum sadnessisafeeling

 

[sadnessisafeeling]

Thank you, guys

 

[Talina]

Hi sadnessisafeeling and welcome to the forum

Trauma truly leave wounds that take time to heal and learn to handle. I think trauma will be there with us all the time but you can learn to handle them and not let them define you as a person.

I hope you will find the support here on the forum and I’m glad you have joined us.

 

[JessisMe]

Hello and welcome! xo, j