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wolf man

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I Was always a happy person,i was that person that admire music and listen to it all day... always smiling and laughing i had plans to my future and i started to work for it and i was so exited about future and how happy i will and everything also i was playing football every weekend with friends everything was great , but for no reason and i swear no reason nothing bad happened ...before like 3 months i lose the desire of everything...i just don't like anything no more and nothing give me that joy and happiness like before, i don't like nothing ,before if my friends tell me we will play football or go somewhere i will be so happy and smiling all day and exited but now it just nothing have a meaning for me, i keep asking my self what the meaning of all that the meaning of life in general!! i don't listen to music no more and also food before i was choosing and thinking what i will eat at dinner but now everything taste the same i will eat anything and just sleep, i tell my self this is not real and real life is after we die cause it will last forever not like this life now ..all our smiles and dreams in this life will end someday, it just if someone say something funny i will laugh a little bit and i will tell my self this is fake and tell my self don't be happy with that smile you will be sad later.also the xmas it was like any other normal day i mean our family is here and friends also and everything is ok but i'm not interested and i don't feel it..i tried my best but nothing make me the same happy person i was before cause there is no reason i become this way if there is a reason i guess i would fix it and back to normal but i just become this way,a big part of me want to be that person again but an other part tell me it's fake all your smiles and dreams is fake cause it's just life and life is a big lie nothing deserve to feel any feeling toward it we don't deserve to feel nothing at all i hope you understand me!!
 
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act044

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Mar 8, 2014
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Are you on any meds? Do you have a diagnosis? I know when I'm off my meds there are a few days when I feel hopeless and just want to end it but then there's a week when I feel great; nothing can bring me down. I was diagnosed with bipolar 12 years ago and have been struggling as long as I can remember. When I'm in my highs nothing can bring me down but like you said it doesn't last. The depression feels like it will last forever and it is debilitating. I find my meds work wonders keeping these emotions , highs and lows, in check. I still have highs but my lows are not as bad. The best advice I can give is talk to someone about these feelings. If haven't already , get help. It really doesn't feel good and can be overwhelming in these states. Getting help from a pdoc can do wonders and if you're already seeing one let him/ her know what's going on and they can help to make some changes. I found once I was on meds the stresses of life weren't so bad . These overwhelming feelings didn't make everything seem 100x worse. Hope you get your motivation back and these feelings eventually cease to exist. I'm still working through my issues which isn't easy so don't expect a change within a day. It takes awhile to get back on track. Hugs to you and hopeful wishes on your recovery.
 
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Purple Chaos

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Sorry that you're feeling this way. It sounds pretty much like a classic case of depression. I get like this when my lows begin to creep in; before I sink further down. As act044 asked, are you seeing anyone (therapist, psychiatrist, counsellor) about your change in mood? If not, it would probably be a good idea to visit your GP to talk about how you're feeling. I hope you manage to get help and start to feel more like your old self soon.
 
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