why does this happen

[Someone_alone]

I dont know why this happens to me, i think i might be bipolar, or does schizophrenia have similar symptoms? Im always seasonal in my mood, I get these extreme highs where im just at the top of the world and i feel nothing can bring me down, life in general has been going pretty good for me and yet still i will drop to a feeling of dispair and emptiness where i dont want to live but i cant give up, its just so hard to fight this feeling, i conquer it but it always gets worse when it comes back. I feel nothing which is so much worse than sadness, i feel so blank...like a empty shell just hovering around, why does this have to happen. I feel myself being eaten from the inside by a eternal doom that no matter how hard i fight it, it will always win.

 

[LORD BURT]

Let go of that which you most fear to lose.

 

[Someone_alone]

Let go of that which you most fear to lose.

what i most fear losing is myself, i dont know who i am anymore, i feel so bad, i dont want to hurt those in my life but they dont know who i am, iv lied to people so much and everyone thinks so highly of me but no one really knows me and its gotten to the point where i dont know myself, i feel like im slipping

 

[LORD BURT]

Then you already know what must be done.

 

[vangoghs]

what i most fear losing is myself, i dont know who i am anymore, i feel so bad, i dont want to hurt those in my life but they dont know who i am, iv lied to people so much and everyone thinks so highly of me but no one really knows me and its gotten to the point where i dont know myself, i feel like im slipping

I think you should try to be more honest with yourself and other people. That will probably help you some.

Schizophrenia and Bipolar Disorder do have some commonalities.