- May 15, 2020
- South Africa
I dont know why this happens to me, i think i might be bipolar, or does schizophrenia have similar symptoms? Im always seasonal in my mood, I get these extreme highs where im just at the top of the world and i feel nothing can bring me down, life in general has been going pretty good for me and yet still i will drop to a feeling of dispair and emptiness where i dont want to live but i cant give up, its just so hard to fight this feeling, i conquer it but it always gets worse when it comes back. I feel nothing which is so much worse than sadness, i feel so blank...like a empty shell just hovering around, why does this have to happen. I feel myself being eaten from the inside by a eternal doom that no matter how hard i fight it, it will always win.