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George10111
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- Jul 7, 2017
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I have struggled over ninety percent of the time. Everyone I know secretly hates me. Some people can’t restrain themselves to act decent to me for 5 seconds. I want to end it but the one thing holding me here are my parents. I just couldn’t do that to them. I can’t even let them know I’m suicidal. I feel like such a piece of shit. I belong nowhere. I shouldn’t exist. My life is almost entirely suffering. Even simple things I used to enjoy I can’t anymore. I’m so lost and disconnected from everyone and everything. I don’t know what the fuck I’m trying to say or do anymore. I’m a burden to everyone. I’m embarrassed for who I am. I have tried to get help. My respect for humanity and myself has deteriorated. I’m sorry but I have been treated like a sub par, absolute piece of shit of a person my whole life. I can’t even tell you what I’ve been through and what I go through. I literally can’t explain it to anybody. When I do people go, ‘well George is it possible you are blowing it out of proportion?’ Me, ‘if that’s what you want to hear. But that isn’t the truth, so sorry.’
I sure hope that God has mercy for people like me when I’m gone. I hope he understands that this shitty hell hole we call life is just not possible for me.
I sure hope that God has mercy for people like me when I’m gone. I hope he understands that this shitty hell hole we call life is just not possible for me.