- Nov 30, 2020
- Columbia, SC
Sometimes I feel very confident, but most days I feel like an embarrassment to myself and anyone with me. So I stay in the house all day. I don't even check the mail. I think my wife is planning to leave me, again. My neighbors never find me just standing in the front yard or on the porch. From the car I run straight inside. When I force myself to talk to someone I feel good sometimes. On the rare confident days(about 2 days a month) I love talking to strangers. It wasn't so noticeable when my wife and I were younger. I always had others around me, brother mainly, and a few friends. I'm older and I just stay indoors. I change shirts at least 5 times before going out(out to eat with the wife, or out with her generally, never alone). I really hate being alone. I think it's a burden on my wife.