Although I have not been able to act out my punishment, I feel it every day. Why do we feel a need to harm ourselves? What happened to make us feel this genuine urge?
Yep. A way of punishing myself. I have so many visible marks at the moment. It’s good to make the mental pain become physical. A way to remind myself how useless I am
Hello. You need to process what's going on inside and get it out in a healthy and natural way. You need to resolve these inner disturbances and not let them persist.
Imagine a jug of water with something impure in it. The whole jug becomes disturbed. Until that impure thing comes out the jug will be in pain. And if that pain isn't coming out it needs help. We are given signs when we need help. Pain is communication. Your brain is mostly water too and can't handle psychological impurities.
Sometimes the jug just gets tossed out. . . .
Sometimes the jug cracks for whatever reason and is no longer good and just gets tossed.
I deserve what I get-will it ever change I don’t know?
i feel the same way, theres always an inane urge or craving to do it but most of the time i just distract myself from the thoughts of it. although i know its an unhealthy coping mechanism and always comes back eventually when i have outbursts it helps for a time, even if just a little.