Why can't I stop

[Quietman5]

Although I have not been able to act out my punishment, I feel it every day. Why do we feel a need to harm ourselves? What happened to make us feel this genuine urge?

 

[mckdomc01]

Im sorry

I thought i replied to this.

For some its a punishment

Others its a form of relief

For me its like a reminder.

It grounds me in a way and becomes a bookmark of sorts.

What about you?

 

[BeStrong2020]

Are you ok? When was the last time you do it?

 

[mckdomc01]

Who?

 

[BeStrong2020]

Both of you, are you both ok?

 

[mckdomc01]

I am also hoping to get a reply from quietman5

I did earlier.

But I am not condoning it.

I dont want to get banned.

I just have come to terms with it.

I joined this site to help others in any way I can since I know how things are.

 

[Quietman5]

I am also hoping to get a reply from quietman5

I did earlier.

But I am not condoning it.

I dont want to get banned.

I just have come to terms with it.

I joined this site to help others in any way I can since I know how things are.

Yes I am doing ok but the feelings never do subside

 

[Quietman5]

Are you ok? When was the last time you do it?

Yes I’m ok and I did it last Saturda. I would do it more frequently but my family is always around and they don’t know I do it

 

[Kmw]

For me it helps with my anxiety and I do it daily. It is hard to keep it hidden. It’s a lonely feeling

 

[Quietman5]

Im sorry

I thought i replied to this.

For some its a punishment

Others its a form of relief

For me its like a reminder.

It grounds me in a way and becomes a bookmark of sorts.

What about you?

punishment For being a bad person and a way to ”feel”

 

[Kmw]

Yep. A way of punishing myself. I have so many visible marks at the moment. It’s good to make the mental pain become physical. A way to remind myself how useless I am

 

[TheHeartHasAVoice]

Hello. You need to process what's going on inside and get it out in a healthy and natural way. You need to resolve these inner disturbances and not let them persist.

 

[TheHeartHasAVoice]

Imagine a jug of water with something impure in it. The whole jug becomes disturbed. Until that impure thing comes out the jug will be in pain. And if that pain isn't coming out it needs help. We are given signs when we need help. Pain is communication. Your brain is mostly water too and can't handle psychological impurities.

 

[Quietman5]

Sometimes the jug just gets tossed out. . . .
Sometimes the jug cracks for whatever reason and is no longer good and just gets tossed.
I deserve what I get-will it ever change I don’t know?

 

[TheGirlWithThePearlEarring]

i feel the same way, theres always an inane urge or craving to do it but most of the time i just distract myself from the thoughts of it. although i know its an unhealthy coping mechanism and always comes back eventually when i have outbursts it helps for a time, even if just a little.