- Mar 6, 2016
I feel like I complain too much. But it's like I don't know how to be satisfied with life. As soon as I have nothing to complain about, I start to feel sort of miserable in a strange sense. It's weird and seems the exact opposite of how a person should normally be. What is wrong with me? What is my malfunction? Why am I like this? Why can't I be truly happy without feeling that something needs to be wrong? It's like I don't trust happiness. I'm afraid as soon as I express genuine happiness, fate will wipe the smile off my face in the most devastating way, like fate is watching me and if I am happy it will do something to change it. It's a really weird feeling I guess.