Ever since my attempted suicide it seems everyone has a notion of what my so called "normal" self should be . Apparently I should be lively , bubbly , talkative , quirky , there at drop of a hat for everyone , fearless , go getting . In no way should I have quiet moments . The truth I tell others is that I need peace and quiet and time for myself too alot of the time I don't always feel lively quite the opposite but because that is not their perception of me all I get is come on this is not like you you need to get back to how you were . I'm not looking for a pity party . It's just frustrating when others will not listen to what you need for your own well being . I understand others want the best for me and to see me in a better place but there seems to be no acceptance of the fact that I am at times naturally quiet and just need my own space .