I know I am new here, but i'm running out of steam. I won't go into details and frankly I don't know what the hell to say to begin with. I have no support system in my life...I have tried to talk to the ones I trust and all of them have quickly changed the subject after some witty, supposed to be funny remark. Another problem I have is anything i do has to be very low key because as a police officer if word about this gets out it will effectively end my career which will absolutely compound my problems. I guess you could say i am at my last straw since i am on an internet forum asking for advice from complete strangers.