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OBIWAN
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- Mar 7, 2009
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Well I moved to Liverpool with my girlfriend about 5 -6 years ago,everything was ok then I started getting really paranoid and stuff.I have suffered with problems i'd say a long while but never really reconized them before.Anyway,the relationship came to an end which looking back I blame myself for the way I am,the way I have been bought up as I say I reconize now.anyway I moved out above my work place where I was a vet receptionist,very convient a flat above the work place,but so easy to isolate ones self,I begin drinking at the weekends to oblivion,anyhow one tuesday afternoon and bam,my mind felt it had exploded,I was scared as hell,felt like a big fuzzy elastic band around my head.I didnt know what was happening,Thats when I started getting major panik attacks one after the other,I was so scared I thought I was dying,I phoned an ambulance,they done all tests to see if there was anything physically wrong with me,the ambulance man said @Is your mind playing tricks on [email protected] you could say that....Anyhow everything then became very strange,like nothing was real,and then the suicide pattern repeating in my head,I was taking to people and it was if they were something else like they were attacking myself or something.I had to take my mind off my suicide thinking so I got a bus into the city to go to the museum,but it all got to much I brokedown and went to