- Mar 11, 2021
I often have nothing to say to people whom talk to me.And what is so much to understand in this world? Otherwise, isn't the inability to communicate a social phobia? I was very good at school, but I'm frustrated for that reason, my bosses feel this nervousness and they don't like me. People I've thought were stupid do much better than I do in life, so there's no point in talking about aikyuta. How old are you? Otherwise, with the pandemic, it will be difficult to find new contacts. You just have to be patient.
I might like them or have no problem with them but thinking of things to say when making social chit chat is hard. Unless they touch on a subject I find interesting I am stuck. General every day life and mundanity does not fascinate me but things like nutrition do for example.
My sense of humour is weird, i am amused by myself and by others when they do daft things but they take it too personally. My sense of humour is self depricating but i mean no harm by it.
I always say my ego can take it but its not because i have a big ego, i just dont have one. I cant stand this societies obsession with ego. I love studying and learning and research is the love of my life but this world makes it all about worthiness...i dont care about that, i care about the research...its fascinating.
I am scared to say anything incase they take it personally
I can't humour things
I can't make observations
i can't say anything without it being wrong somehow...
I cannot be free to be myself as people misunderstand me and take me and themselves too seriously.