- May 11, 2015
I'm 19 years old and I've been through a lot of traumatic experiences throughout the years. I lost my girlfriend to suicide a couple of years ago which then threw me into a spiral of Depression. I spent 5 months in a mental health hospital and after my stay I got diagnosed with severe Depression. I've started to think a lot lately about the illness I may have and after speaking to people that have BPD I've come to realise I have all of the symptoms and I'm extremely worried, not to be disrespectful to those that have it. I cannot seem to hold relationships. I find it difficult to get close to people and my moods are so unstable I can't keep up. I'm constantly changing the way I view myself and I'm extremely paranoid and jealous, most of the time. I'm in a relationship now and I can't stop accusing my partner of cheating or being in love with other people, i can't stop thinking about it. I don't know what's happening to me. I've lost the motivation to do anything and I feel as if everyone is out to hurt me and it's affecting every aspect of my life. Please help me. I'm also drinking a hell of a lot lately and can't seem to cut down.