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Hi there people. I was on this forum wondering what has wrecked me and who I am.
I'm a 15 year old male. I take add medicine, and was recently taken off of antidepressents. I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder a while back, but the psychiatrist is having doubts about that as of now. Mainly because of what my symptoms are.
Symptoms:
Lack of feelings/emotions: For some reason, most of the day I can't feel anything. I'm not happy. Not sad. Not fear. Just kind of fuzzy. Fuzzy is the feeling where I am uncomfortably numb. I feel like I'm trapped in me.
Lesser feelings: The feelings I do have flucuate. Every now and then I do feel things. I sometimes get extremely angry. I want to break stuff, kill people, cause havoc. But at the same time self-confident, motivated. I rarely ever feel sad.
Seeing stuff: I see a lot of wierd things. According to others, they aren't there, but I sometimes doubt that. It happens sporadically.
Hearing things: As well as seeing stuff, I hear things as well. Typically voices consisting of grunts, yells, and random sentances. I hate it.
Lack of motivation: I can't seem to motivate myself to do much stuff. I don't see the point in anything. But I'm not depressed.
Social life: I'm not gonna lie, I'm extremely good with people, but I hate them. They annoy the hell out of me, and I perfer to be alone. I can stand it for a little, but then it's too much and I run outside. I've been told I'm extremely manipulative, (even though I don't know what that really is). Also, I can't talk sometimes. Like it's not something I can control all that well. I just can't talk. I can't find the energy. The will. The want.
Drug use: Lately I've been smoking weed every weekend, but that's all. The "hallucinations" aren't triggered by this though. In fact that never happens. But I'm gonna stop doing other things soon.
I ask you please help me. My doctor just said that's not good, and sent me off.
I'm a 15 year old male. I take add medicine, and was recently taken off of antidepressents. I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder a while back, but the psychiatrist is having doubts about that as of now. Mainly because of what my symptoms are.
Symptoms:
Lack of feelings/emotions: For some reason, most of the day I can't feel anything. I'm not happy. Not sad. Not fear. Just kind of fuzzy. Fuzzy is the feeling where I am uncomfortably numb. I feel like I'm trapped in me.
Lesser feelings: The feelings I do have flucuate. Every now and then I do feel things. I sometimes get extremely angry. I want to break stuff, kill people, cause havoc. But at the same time self-confident, motivated. I rarely ever feel sad.
Seeing stuff: I see a lot of wierd things. According to others, they aren't there, but I sometimes doubt that. It happens sporadically.
Hearing things: As well as seeing stuff, I hear things as well. Typically voices consisting of grunts, yells, and random sentances. I hate it.
Lack of motivation: I can't seem to motivate myself to do much stuff. I don't see the point in anything. But I'm not depressed.
Social life: I'm not gonna lie, I'm extremely good with people, but I hate them. They annoy the hell out of me, and I perfer to be alone. I can stand it for a little, but then it's too much and I run outside. I've been told I'm extremely manipulative, (even though I don't know what that really is). Also, I can't talk sometimes. Like it's not something I can control all that well. I just can't talk. I can't find the energy. The will. The want.
Drug use: Lately I've been smoking weed every weekend, but that's all. The "hallucinations" aren't triggered by this though. In fact that never happens. But I'm gonna stop doing other things soon.
I ask you please help me. My doctor just said that's not good, and sent me off.