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White Rabbit

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Hi there,

This is my first time on one of these forums so excuse me if i ramble on for a bit. i'm 27, was diagnosed with cyclothymic disorder a few months ago, but have been coping with it most of my life.
When I was a kid i was told i had add and sent to anger managment to control my outbursts and make me easier for teachers to handle. I guess to everyone else it seemed to help but all it really taugh me was to internalise things so I wasn't so disruptive. Fast forward through the usual teen years of drink/drugs to try and keep me consistent if not stable, I somehow wound up married to a wonderful woman who is almost unendingly patient with me on my bad days. But being a young couple with few qualifications doesn't make life easy and ignoring my issues has led to them ecoming more visible t people at work and in real life so i finally went to my doctor.
So i've now been doing ccbt for a couple of months, and growing increasingly frustrated at it's lack of relevance to how i feel. Now the techniques are very helpful for a specific issue like if something happens at work and sets me off, but are't very helpful for the lingering, overwhelming sense of doom and pointlesness that comes and goes without the need for external influence.
Im not sure what to think, am I expecting too much too fast? is there another avenue that will help more?
I know i should just go back to my doctor, but that was one of the scariest things i've ever done, and it took me several years of talking about it before i actually did it.

Sorry if this isn't the right board for this, but not totally up on how it all works here yet.
 
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6ofusathome

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Could you call a crisis line or health care line (not sure what you have available and where you are from). Where I live I was encouraged to think of the crisis line as a mental health line. To ask questions, to be able to say "I am scared to go back to my doctor" and anything else. Maybe they can give you some insight.

Also the therapist who is teaching cbt....or are you trying to train yourself?...you could ask then how to use cbt for the constant heaviness, overwhelming sense you have.

I hate cbt. It just makes me angry so I am glad that you have had some success with it.
 
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White Rabbit

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The course im on is a computerised cbt course which contains all the techniques and tasks but you can do on a pc. I figured it sounded less intimidating than actually sitting with a therapist. I have a contact at my local hospital who monitors my progress so i should probably email him.
 
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