What should I do?

[lizzie g]

Hi,
It's been a while since I've been on here but I have a problem I could do with a bit of advice on.

I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 months on friday due to my anxiety about being in a relationship (I think I'm an unwilling commitment phobic!) & now I'm wondering if I've done the right thing.

Basically I get really bad anxiety whenever I get into a relationship & this makes me end it with the person I'm with. My ex is a really sweet (if some times immature) guy but I ended with him because of anxiety, his immatue behaviour & I couldn't see my feelings developing for him.

I had my 1st meeting with a psychiatrist today & they are increasing my Proxetine to 40mg a day & if I don't feel better may put me on mood stabalisers.

I'm really wishing I had waited to see how today had turned out as I'm now begining to wonder how much of what I was feeling has been caused by my depression & anxiety.

I really miss him & I know he's worried about the state of my health & he wants me to get better. I'm wondering if I should let him know how today went but I'm worried that contacting him is just going to make matters worse.

I really want to tell him how I feel but I'm worried he will brush me off as I put him through so much on friday? I'm wondering if I should wait for my mood to settle before I see if there is any hope left for us?

I'm kicking myself for letting my illness get the better of me once again.

Can anyone offer any suggestion?

Ta. x

 

[jekel1]

hi

defiantly wait till your stable and have been for some time as your judgment wil be impaired , you could just not want to be alone due to your anxiety making you miss this guy, i would wait and stay strong soyou can make the choice when you are well enough

 

[Gorgoose]

If he does really care about you and want you to get better, then he should understand that you need some time to sort yourself out a bit first. You don't want to make a decision in a hurry and end up in the same place a few months down the line! I'd let him know how you're feeling, and keep him updated on your progress, but take the time you need to feel sure.