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lostinsidemymind

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I know I'm a newbie but I'm feeling a little hopless right now and could use some advice.

I was first diagnosed with clinical depression back in 2003 when I was 16. 6 years later at 22 I have been told I have major depressive disorder with chronic anxiety and something called psychomotor retardation.

I have spent the last 6 years taking different anti depressents. 5 different SSRI's and 1 MAOI. None of them have helped.

I've just finished a computerised congnitve behavoiurhal therapy course and am due to start group therapy for anxiety management although I am absolutely bricking it.

I have seen 3 different psychiatrists over the years, the last 1 of which I discharged myself from because she was controlling my entre life and trying to get my kids taken away from me.

I see my Dr once a month although recently have been cancelling appointments because he makes me really really uncomfortable.

Every night when I got to bed I say my goodbyes in my head because I know I won't wake up in the morning.
WHen I do sleep there is a man who haunts me in my dreams. He is a very scary deformed man and he tries to hurt me. Sometimes he is there when I am awake too.
I can't have my curtains open in my living room because people stare in at me.

I spend my days looking up death on the internet, I know this won't help my anxiety but I can't help it. I am obsessed with death.

I have no friends in real life and the ones I have on the internet always end up hating me because I am weird.

Sorry to go off one one but I just feel at the end of my tether. I feel I have tried everything and nothing is helping so now I am stuck.

What do I do next?
 
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GrizzlyBear

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I've just finished a computerised congnitve behavoiurhal therapy course and am due to start group therapy for anxiety management although I am absolutely bricking it.......
.Sorry to go off one one but I just feel at the end of my tether. I feel I have tried everything and nothing is helping so now I am stuck.

What do I do next?
Well, you've got the group therapy lined up....so I guess that's what's next?

You say you feel you've tried everything (and I've said that too) but really you haven't. There's always something else to try - a different therapist - different friends, whatever. Things that work better for you may be just round the corner. Hope you find them soon.
 
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nickh

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Well I'm afraid there certainly any easy answers. But the obvious omission from your list of treatments (I'm going on what you have listed) is any kind of one-to-one talking therapy (with a psycho-therapsist or better a clinical psychologist). Have you ever been referred for this sort of therapy?
I am afraid it can be a very long process to get the right treatment in some cases.

Nick.
 
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