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justsomeguy
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- Nov 16, 2009
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So. I'm a guy who is almost 30. I have a decent job, a decent apartment, a decent social life... I am absolutely terrified to date. I got out of the army 6 years ago and have put on a significant amount of weight, but even given my weight I still have these gorgeous women, good women, who are interested in me. I always chase them away, one way or another. Recently this girl contacted me, I have chased this girl away like2 times and I have no idea why she is back for more. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to put her through the head games... and I'm really tired of being lonely. I just want to date.
The sad thing is, I'm also a musician. It's so weird how I can get up on stage in front of complete strangers and play and sing my heart out, but I'm incapable of real intimacy. I also work with persons with major depressive disorder, manic depressive disorder, borderline personality disorder, and a host of other mental health problems. I can see what is going on with them, and provide advice, but I can't seem to pin point my own problem.
I feel like I should be able to man-up... take this girl to a concert, go do something fun, ANYTHING... but in the back of my mind I feel like she deserves better, that I'm not good enough.
The sad thing is, I'm also a musician. It's so weird how I can get up on stage in front of complete strangers and play and sing my heart out, but I'm incapable of real intimacy. I also work with persons with major depressive disorder, manic depressive disorder, borderline personality disorder, and a host of other mental health problems. I can see what is going on with them, and provide advice, but I can't seem to pin point my own problem.
I feel like I should be able to man-up... take this girl to a concert, go do something fun, ANYTHING... but in the back of my mind I feel like she deserves better, that I'm not good enough.