- Oct 1, 2009
Hi every one my name is tom im 22, from the age of 13 i have suffered from depression and anxiety i was put on anti depressents and mood stablisers for about 2 years, after that it all seemed to subside for a while... I have recently just turned 22 and realised that some of the old feelings have come back depression anxiety and when out in public i have this weird feeling like everyone is watching me or talking about me, which results in me avoiding busy places... Now for the last couple of weeks i have had these odd thoughts that i live in my own world which is different from the one we all live in, i feel emotionless not happy not sad just very blank, i live across the road from a cemetery and for the last week have been obsessed with walking through it i have these thoughts that i am some how conected to it... I avoid my friends and feel as though they would not understand me and the way i think, everyday i feel as though i am getting deeper into this weird reality i live in, I also feel as though i am this small person trapped in my own head and controlling my body, its hard to explain but this is how i feel... What could it be??? I have also lost motivation for everything, im always tired but when i go to bed i cant sleep, and lately i have been very confused, thanks for listening and i know it sounds strange but this is how i feel... thanks again.