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What is wrong with me..

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all very stunning Justafriend

couldn't open the attachment though :love:
 
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It's again time to sleep.. again I can't..
My head is making up stuff to harm myself..

Are new apartment is on the third floor.. I'm worried.. idk why.. balcony isn't that stable and you can fall down.. it scares me..

I feel empty and numb.. I don't care if something happens..
 
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k keep away from the balcony
and find some thing nice to watch on the internet
or something really interesting
that exercises your mind ...

:hug5:
 
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sorry about that Friend

any idea what you would say to someone else
who is having sleep problems ?

:love:
 
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sorry about that Friend

any idea what you would say to someone else
who is having sleep problems ?

:love:
Nothing because idk what to do about it..
It's not that I'm not tired.. but my mind freaks out at night and thinks of all shit that can happen..

It's like you drinking coffee all day long and your tired as shit but the caffeine doesn't leave you alone..

I'm tired as hell and I get SH thoughts about it and thoughts about dying.. in my head sounds it like perfect until I wake up the next day..

Than I can normally think and see how fk crazy that sounds..
 
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n yeah I know what you mean with the sleep
I needed zopiclone for that
k I'm just going to send lots of loves then for now

:love: :love::love:
 
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Tried to talk to T today.. I'm horrible in giving people up.. even if they don't deserve a second chance.

He talked back for 5 minutes and was gone again.. one week and I'm going to school again.. than I see T again.. it's hard because I don't know how to react.. I want to talk but at the same time I don't know if I want to..

If he really wanted to be there for me he would have texted me.. I know his own live is crazy as well.. but I can't help if he stays sillance as well..

My head is going bad of arguing with myself..
 
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This is letterly the only pleas where I can vent..
Sorry for the people that hate nagative depression talk all the time..

I get it.. but I need this place to write my thoughts.. or I go nuts and you hear nothing from me anymore..

So yeah sorry..

I did draw today.. one of my feelings because I felt so bad.. I have to say that it helpt for the time when I was drawing.. but when I stoped it came all back..

Want to SH so bad.. I'm so sorry
 
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