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What is wrong with me..

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Jules5

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Focus on all the good things for now. Let go Let God as they say. Just enjoy the few remaining days you have left on your journey. It is normal to have a reaction to the food and water in other places. It too will pass. Looking forward to more pictures.
 
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Thank you. Very beautiful pictures. I hope you are able to enjoy yourself to some extent. Take care.
 
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Focus on all the good things for now. Let go Let God as they say. Just enjoy the few remaining days you have left on your journey. It is normal to have a reaction to the food and water in other places. It too will pass. Looking forward to more pictures.
If that was so easy I had done it months ago..
That's the problem with ediction you don't pick out your own thoughts and feelings..

This feels like a commend like just breath.. sorry but I can't! I don't want to think about it. My head is doing that..

Do you think I like thinking/ seeing SH when I close my eyes? No I don't...

I know you try to help.. thank you for that but it feels like you judge me.. and I am not good at answering that..
 
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I'm going to write more in my journal..
So If you want to know how things are going.. you can find it there..
 
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I'm going to write more in my journal..
So If you want to know how things are going.. you can find it there..
What time is it with you, Friend?

2.20 am here...not sure if you're night or day ?
 
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'Cos you mentioned trying not to wake your fella up, a few posts above...wasn't sure if it was night time or you were trying to catch up on sleep in the day x
 
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'Cos you mentioned trying not to wake your fella up, a few posts above...wasn't sure if it was night time or you were trying to catch up on sleep in the day x
A okay.. no it's morning. I have to move again today.. so yeah. Need to go out of bed.
 
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I just want to tell my best friend the truth about my mental health but I'm so 🤬 scared..

I don't want to lose her because of my shit.. I don't know if she will understand.. I don't want her to worry.. that's why I didn't tell her for a year now.. but I feel like I'm lying all the time..

Today is not the day.. I'm in a really dark place so I will worry her to much.. I don't want that to happen..

My other best friend. Where like a group. The girl from above and 2 boys. The girl is D, and the boys are T and R.

D is like a sister to me. All of the fun things I do in live is with her. Like shopping, drawing, crafting and stuff.

R is like a good friend. When he is with you he is the sweetest.. but when Holliday's come up he dissepers from Earth. Good luck trying to find him..

T was my best friend in crime.. he knew a lot. He was there for me and I was always there for him.. recently he started to ignore me. Whithout saying a word.. I don't know what I did wrong..

I miss him verry much.. he was the only friend I could talk to.. and I lost him. At first I was really sad.. I tried a couple of times but I did hear nothing.. I became angry.. my hole year I was there for him..

He was the reason I fell into the depression again.. because I worried sick about him.. he was the last drop of water.. and I know if it wasn't him it would have bin something else.. but it wasn't.

I blocked him everywhere at socials.. I was so angry..

Now I don't know anymore.. I'm so fucking alone in this.. he was the one person that understand my feelings.. I regret my decision but what can I do if he doesn't want to talk anymore..

Feel so #€':*" alone
 
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JCPraha

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It is very difficult for people who have not experienced their own mental health difficulties to understand. It really is. Only someone else who has had this illness is able to understand me. Others, cannot really understand. They have no idea.
 
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Trying to draw my feelings.. it's hard
But my mind is so restless need to do something
 
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