What is this?

[Zachtt92]

I've been really having some issues with this thought process for the past few months. It's kind of hard to explain. I start think about the earth and created things like trees or cars, houses etc, and I gat a thought like "well this didn't exist at one point etc" and I start thinking of these things not existing. And I basically start to feel like I am only seeing emptiness, before everything. I am having trouble enjoying these things with these thoughts. For example, I love nature, but lately I'll start to think "these trees were never here at one point, so what makes them beautiful now?".... or like, these trees could be cut down in one day, and be gone....
I cant stand these thoughts. They leave me feeling hopeless, and I feel like I am losing my wonder in life....

 

[Zoe1]

oh I used to get that ! I've been in treatment for over 30 years now
and my thoughts are a lot better
I've been on medication , in therapy and group therapy
and done a lot of writing and affirmations

 

[Zachtt92]

What medication if you don't mind me asking?

I was previously on seroquel and Sertraline, but I felt like maybe one or both made it worse

 

[Zoe1]

sorry I don't want to say

it took quite a lot of trial and error
which was a difficult time to go through

and some of the meds which didn't agree with me
are perfect for someone else

the important thing is to feed back to the doctor
any side effects and see if he/she can improve things

 

[Sofya]

Think of it as a tree with big roots. You being obsessive has led to the other thoughts that now disturb you from enjoying your life and now it is more of a cloud that stops you from seeing things. I do understand (I faced the same thing) how bad this is and it simply stops you from enjoying your life like a bug.

I really don't know how to treat this, I, myself, just overcame it over time. But you have a big nasty thought that had started all that - so I think you should start from there. Talk to some specialists about it..

Don't worry, we are on your side!

 

[Sofya]

By the way, Oregon must be really nice. Is it a lot of trees there?

 

[Sofya]

Wow! I am taking both Seraquel and Sertraline right now - 100 mg and 250 mg respectively. It's being working well for me, but you really have to get rid of that big original thought..

 

[Zachtt92]

Yes, lots if trees here. Glad the meds are working for you. Maybe I wasn't on a big enough dose of sertraline? I was only on like 50 mg. I am very sensitive to meds. Maybe that's a small dose for these thoughts?

 

[Sofya]

Yes, I think it is. I would say that either you really have to increase the dose (because even if you are sensitive to meds, it is still way too little) or switch to another antidepressant.