- Dec 3, 2019
Oh heck, some of us learned how to control the outcomes so described that we are prone to. Self harm comes in rainbows, an infinite palette. That doesn't mean we didn't ride the teetering edge many times. We knew something was wrong, very wrong. We knew the stigma of being "outed", was worse than the disorder. We hid from everything, everyone, especially ourselves, we kept the shields up. Sometimes, we got lucky, and found someone who would stay with us, (for awhile), mostly because they stopped believing that we would ever leave them. Music eventually became my FP, most people would just use you, taunt you, abuse you, bringing out that passive aggressive side that just sends you right back into hiding. Eventually .. you just shut everyone out, except for those few lifelong friends that just never left you, because they know .. you know.