- Jun 13, 2016
Hi, i have never tried this, but im whiling to try anything. To start, hi im kyle im 20 years old. When i was 16, I met the girl of my dreams, everyday for 2 years we hung out there was maybe 2 days in those 2 years we didnt hang out (until the last 2 months when i started working). We were the perfect couple we even made most likely to get married in the school yearbook. I always dreamed of marrying my high school sweetheart ever since i was a little kid i dont know why but I just always thought that was the dream. Let me make this clear, there is a lot of things about her nobody knows but i did going into it because i always believe you should never let somebody's past determine who they are TODAY. So i gave her a chance. It was the best decision of my life up until December 20 2014.. I get a text saying its over out of the blue random as hell.. I lost it, i was at work and just collapsed my whole world in one text was shattered. She calls me and tells me im not coming over for Christmas nothing, again that killed me even more. Well skip ahead a day after christmas, her mom calls me and says "how was christmas with rachel?". At that exact moment, i knew what was really going on.. I hung up and called her immediately and started questioning her it took me 2 hours to find out the girl that i invested everything in, changed my life around for her, the girl who told me she wants me to be the father of our future kids, had been cheating on me since i started working.... I didnt get sad i got mad and i remember 2 weeks later they broke up she came to me i gave her a chance and suddenly 3 days after i get a text saying (I moved to georgia). It has been a year and a half. The sadness that i didnt feel at first i am now for about a year. AFTER A YEAR AND A HALF, i feel absolutley pathetic for that.. For still being sad over her.. I cant seem to pull my self out of this whole it just gets deeper and deeper. I never had closure i never had that final goodbye. I miss her everyday i miss the old Rachel. But i know shes 1400 miles but even though i know that i still cant let go... i just need some kind of advice WHAT DO I DO TO LIVE NORMAL AGAIN?? I have tried dating i have tried everything and im starting to run out of options.. I lost my whole world. I just need help.... I feel so lost and alone.. I put on such a fake front in front of everybody in my life...