- Jan 31, 2019
- White Plains, NY
Just stands in front of my windows and his all day long everyday. It's an apartment building so I can't make him go away. But I hate him so much because of what he and the rest of the neighbors have done to me that I can't ignore him. I don't say a word to him or any of the rest of them but I'm a ticking time bomb. I'm going to blow soon. And embarrass myself. And none of them will be bothered by me. They'll simply call the police and use the police to try and scare me. It's five against one. I can't win no matter what I do. I've even started watching them to make them uncomfortable. And it works as a temporary measure. They won't talk to each other if I'm there listening. They leave. But that's not going to work forever. They'll eventually adjust to my presence and ignore me. And laugh at me knowing I'm not going to do anything besides stand there. It's like being in prison. And I have no prison gang of my own. I'm alone. Forever and always. I just want out. I can't make it through a tenth summer here in this apartment building.