- Apr 8, 2010
I'm so confused right now. I told my doctor a brief overview of my feelings and she seems to think i may be bipolar or have borderline personality disorder, so she has referred me for a pysc analysis. Basically my moods are so rapid I fleet from one extreme to the other, feeling verry elevated and invincable one minute, then something triggers (normally some form of slight rejection) and I'm at the next extreme which entails depression, crying, explosive anger on myself like punching walls, screaming and self harming. I feel like a needy freak, I hate being alone and try everything to have friends with me and if they can't I automatically feel like they hate me and I'm not good enough to be their friend or that they simple don't care about me at all. I don't want to be like this, I've self harmed since i was about 13, but over the years it's gotten worse, luckily it only seems to occur when I'm very angry or upset rather than a daily thing. I just want to know about BPD from people who have it and who know the score. I don't want to come across as some kind of hypocondriac I just want to know if someone is actually wrong with me ?