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What are you thinking about right now? (mental health related)

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iWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH2

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How weak and scared I feel. I can't take on or even face the world today. I'm exhausted. I feel totally alone. The INFINITE or God hates me. I feel like a scared little girl instead of a confident bold woman. :panic: :hankie:
 
losingme1989

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Frustrated by the sheer amount of ignorance about mental health/physical illness that I face from most of the people in my personal life.

Also I feel grateful that I found this forum to have a place to share what I am going through and not feel so alone with it all, pretty sure that I would be in a terrible place otherwise.

Hope MHF stays around for a long time to come, you're all awesome, thank you! :grouphug: :peace: :salut:
 
Parayana

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I'm thinking it's time to go Hoboing again, if I stay in my poky little studio flat for more than a couple of days I know I'll get frustrated and get stoned again, so it's time to go a wandering again beefore the weather tuerns too bad.
 
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Stuck in the couch right now, unable to move because of my fatigue. My legs feel heavy.
 
ghost_girl80

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I always think everyone is out to get me, but then again I do suffer from paranoia lol just sayin:dance:
 
white_nightshade

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I'm wondering if it's just me, although I know it can't possibly be, who feels that mental health teams don't actually do anything?
I was discharged a few years ago and it didn't bother me because I wasn't getting any help anyway.

It's weird to be left in so much fucking misery and contemplating suicide yet nothing gets done.
Is it the curse of the personality disorder label?
Within 10 minutes of waking up this morning I was thinking about how i'd like to end my own life. That's something i'm supposed to live with, is it? Just need a bit more resilience?
Fuck this fucking shit.
people don't start off not caring. they become conditioned to it. a human heart can only handle so much before it shuts down emotionally.
 
white_nightshade

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As I suspected it went shit and now I feel suicidal
you are flame heart. let thier actions and words not deter you, let it motivate you. let the flame in your heart consume it and feed your fire. never give up or give in. because the story is not over yet. and if you end it now, you'll never know what the true ending was.
 
white_nightshade

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geeze so much suicidal stuff going through peoples heads.. I'm just rehashing my last attempt and what my dad said because of it. told me if I kill myself it's murder, and I'll be dead so I cannot repent. so I'm garenteed to go to hell if I kill myself.

now I'm thinking about what he said when I oded...I was vomitting blood...wanted to go to the hospital to ease the pain. figured they'd make me comfortable while I died. my dad went to the mailbox instead of jumping in the car to take me to the hospital. ...when I asked why he said becuase he wanted to see if any money had arrived today becuase hospitals are expensive...

the time I tried to write out my testamony.........my dad told me I made him sound like a monster in it...my best friend told me it should never see the light of day as it doesn't glorify god enough...I destroyed it...

the time I tried to remember my childhood....I wrote everythnig I could remember on paper. reread it to myself and started screaming...couldn't control it...I was terrified and screaming in the corner of my room till completely spent, crawled to my bed and slept...ripped up the papers when I woke up...just thniking about it puts a knot in my stomach...


sorry...I know it's supposed to be what's going on in my head..and this is what's going on in my head..but I doubt anybody needed to hear that...I just needed to say it..
 
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At times it feels so bad with the stomach pain and the feeling strapped to my body and feeling heavy that it feels like torture. It feels like my brain is trying to break me down until I can’t bear it anymore.
 
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I apologize if my removed post suggested I was contemplating suicide. My post was not meant to suggest that, nor am I doing so.
 
Topcat

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I can't face another fucking week in my fucking job, oh my god I want to scream, every week gets a bit harder
 
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I'm being to outspoken again. I hope I don't offend anyone. I'm so sorry everyone. Please don't be angry at me. I need to learn when to shut my mouth! :sorry:
 
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I wanna do this face to face now! Like I used to do back in the day when I was stronger! :mad:
 
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