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What are you thinking about right now? (mental health related)

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Jaye8525

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I am very close to the end.

I had made peace with the the options I chose. I had feelings of happiness and pride over how I gave and never asked for anything in return, and chose to lend an ear to all. I even leant an ear to those with overt ignorance because I knew some were just built that way and I had to accept it. I had done what was necessary and it was time to move on.

I have never attempted to force myself out of this existence. It never seemed practicable in my current situation. I am always one for carefully planning and when I do things I do it with the greatest accuracy and efficiency possible.

I wanted to get my hands on a firearm but that's almost impossible in the UK. I wanted it to be quick and the damage irreparable.

I have felt this way ever since I was a young teenager and witnessed a girl getting raped. I am double the age I was back then but I cannot off all the trauma of my life.

I would have no regrets because I have gave everything I possible have to give, and I am sinking.

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This is a terrible post. I am just a shell of a person.
 
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jonjon

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Thinking, damn. Its 4.15am.

Up all night, part pain, part freaked out. Why freaked, no bloody idea. Cant remember why. Great this.

Had to look up my help notes, am in house, phew.

Wish this all would just do one... bye, your a pain in the rear MH..

Stuff it, grandsons Lego.... 😇😂
 
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EstherRose94

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Thinking, damn. Its 4.15am.

Up all night, part pain, part freaked out. Why freaked, no bloody idea. Cant remember why. Great this.

Had to look up my help notes, am in house, phew.

Wish this all would just do one... bye, your a pain in the rear MH..

Stuff it, grandsons Lego.... 😇😂
😂 did you step on a lego? Ouch!
 
Urban Hermit

Urban Hermit

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People are pretty amazed when I tell them I'm not on Facebook, this is mainly due to social convention or rather defiance of it 'cos everybodies on it.
Me too xxx
 
soulsearcher

soulsearcher

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rang up the crisis team waiting for a call back but god knows when theyll call
 
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soulsearcher

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What's up ? :hug:
feel like im hallucinating, im seeing black shadowy figures and when i close my eyes i see random people and im feeling really suicidal and want to self harm
 
Lunar Lady

Lunar Lady

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feel like im hallucinating, im seeing black shadowy figures and when i close my eyes i see random people and im feeling really suicidal and want to self harm
Oh, Soul - so sorry hun. :hug:

Just keep talking to us until they ring you back. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
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