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What are you thinking about right now? (mental health related)

Fairy Lucretia

Fairy Lucretia

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I hate the way my mood crashes even though i'm trying all the right things.
Today i've eaten well, went out for a walk, took B vitamins (and usual meds), bought a nice plant pot for my new house plant, done the dishes etc. et fucking cetera.

And then I feel like I can't do this any more. I feel the feeling in my body as well as my mind. Such a heavy and nervy horrible feeling in my chest.

I came onto the forum earlier for a bit of distraction and find a post containing a video compilation making fun of fat people. I'm 28 stone. That shit fucking hurts.
One of the reasons I eat so much is that it's a way of coping with the fact that I can't fucking stand this world or the people in it, so it's ironic that the narrow minded ***** target us fatties even more.

I don't know what the fucking point is.
God knows i've tried to kill myself and still would if it was guaranteed, but some people really love and care about this fatty, so I can't inflict that kind of pain and grief on them.
I'm stuck. I'm stuck in a life that I don't want.
how dare they
im so sorry that happened ,you are one of THE most beautiful people i know
who cares about your size and outer shell? you are lovely somerset please don't let silly people get you down
you can lose weight if you want,but they will always be mean x :hug:
 
daffy

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So glad I’m back home after visiting my daughter. How can something that is so nice cause me so much anxiety.
 
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So glad I’m home from work. Was a long day! Time to kick my shoes off and relax :)
 
megirl

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I'm doing my 4th week in my new job I only do 12 hours a week, maybe a few hours in the weekend if needed. I am finally getting some confidence back. Its taking a bit, they have been so patient with me which is awesome. I realise at the moment that's probably enough hours. One day there I was noticeably anxious as my hands were all jittery I let it be. I thought I can't do anything about it so I just went with it.
Be nice if I do get a bit of work in the weekend as I find weekends can be a bit lonely, as often people are doing things with family together stuff. And I dont want to start drinking again sometimes get like that if I've got no actual plans
 
Topcat

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That I'm fucking my kids lives up because they're going to be like me, but if I disappeared that would also fuck their lives up.
Either way I'm awful.
 
Topcat

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That I'm fucking my kids lives up because they're going to be like me, but if I disappeared that would also fuck their lives up.
Either way I'm awful.
Really I fucked their lives up by simply creating them in the first place
 
daffy

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Think I need to go to bed and hide under the duvet. Been a real shitty day and don’t want it to last any longer.
 
Urban Hermit

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I hate the way my mood crashes even though i'm trying all the right things.
Today i've eaten well, went out for a walk, took B vitamins (and usual meds), bought a nice plant pot for my new house plant, done the dishes etc. et fucking cetera.

And then I feel like I can't do this any more. I feel the feeling in my body as well as my mind. Such a heavy and nervy horrible feeling in my chest.

I came onto the forum earlier for a bit of distraction and find a post containing a video compilation making fun of fat people. I'm 28 stone. That shit fucking hurts.
One of the reasons I eat so much is that it's a way of coping with the fact that I can't fucking stand this world or the people in it, so it's ironic that the narrow minded ***** target us fatties even more.

I don't know what the fucking point is.
God knows i've tried to kill myself and still would if it was guaranteed, but some people really love and care about this fatty, so I can't inflict that kind of pain and grief on them.
I'm stuck. I'm stuck in a life that I don't want.
Hey just write your post, that sh*t that someone else posted is so unkind, I hope it was reported and removed quickly, it's odd I can't tell sometimes if one or two people on here are in genuine pain and just have an unusual way of expressing themselves, or if some of them are just trolls who for some reason think it's funny to say things that are triggers or hurtful..

I for one think that beauty is about the love you have inside not the packaging it comes in ... This world appears to want to force us all try to conform and then fail at living the celebrity/pop star whatever BS image. In the hopes that we will buy more of the latest fad , post stupid photos of our latest over priced purchase, or something.

(Yes it's nice to have nice things but not because it's been forced at you via media suggestion)

You are clearly a kind and thoughtful person and no one can take that from you ...

Don't listen to the haters X

Ps sorry if that was a bit of a rant but that stuff isn't cool X
UH x
 
Urban Hermit

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how stupid i am ,i can't do the things other people can do x
Nope your not ... XXX I don't think you're being kind to yourself comparing yourself to others. Show the same kindness you always show to others here to you X X X
 
littlemachines

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thinking about how stressed i am and how draining my job is....worried about some stuff that’s happening at work in the coming months and i’ve already been so anxious and depressed idk if i can handle it :S
 
Mayfair

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How I won't be able to earn a living in 4 weeks. And how unfair this is.
 
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Garry

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I'm wondering if it's just me, although I know it can't possibly be, who feels that mental health teams don't actually do anything?
I was discharged a few years ago and it didn't bother me because I wasn't getting any help anyway.

It's weird to be left in so much fucking misery and contemplating suicide yet nothing gets done.
Is it the curse of the personality disorder label?
Within 10 minutes of waking up this morning I was thinking about how i'd like to end my own life. That's something i'm supposed to live with, is it? Just need a bit more resilience?
Fuck this fucking shit.
I’ve been there mate, I’ve been sitting there spilling my guts out about how Im feel and just get blank stares back.You need to call a crises team and make them know how you’re feeling at the moment.
 
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