- Apr 9, 2011
- Magical fairy wonderland xxxx
how dare theyI hate the way my mood crashes even though i'm trying all the right things.
Today i've eaten well, went out for a walk, took B vitamins (and usual meds), bought a nice plant pot for my new house plant, done the dishes etc. et fucking cetera.
And then I feel like I can't do this any more. I feel the feeling in my body as well as my mind. Such a heavy and nervy horrible feeling in my chest.
I came onto the forum earlier for a bit of distraction and find a post containing a video compilation making fun of fat people. I'm 28 stone. That shit fucking hurts.
One of the reasons I eat so much is that it's a way of coping with the fact that I can't fucking stand this world or the people in it, so it's ironic that the narrow minded ***** target us fatties even more.
I don't know what the fucking point is.
God knows i've tried to kill myself and still would if it was guaranteed, but some people really love and care about this fatty, so I can't inflict that kind of pain and grief on them.
I'm stuck. I'm stuck in a life that I don't want.
im so sorry that happened ,you are one of THE most beautiful people i know
who cares about your size and outer shell? you are lovely somerset please don't let silly people get you down
you can lose weight if you want,but they will always be mean x