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What are you thinking about right now? (mental health related)

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Lilac

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Boss hates me for no reason it is very bizarre.
 
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Going back to the poor lady who told me that she was called an idiot by someone - what she should do is when she is in a crowded cafe or restaurant tell her friend that she was called an idiot for no reason and name the person who called her that.
 
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People who think it is ok to shout at you or lock you up never think it is ok to do to them showing that they are irrational.
 
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Lilac

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Security guard still being bullied into having every break with me and now having to make sure the others let me leave the building at the end of the day.
 
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Worriedyin

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I have been asked to house sit but the person who asked me has friends she likes much more than me and she has family so is she saying that her closer friends and family won’t help her?
Maybe she thinks you'd be good at it? I would take it as a compliment that she's asked you.
 
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Lilac

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I have offered to do some volunteering which I am still able to do. There is just a part of me that thinks if I say I won’t do it will that make people sit up and listen and make some things go right for the better.
I have thought of saying to the organisers who I bear no grudge if I don’t volunteer it won’t make a difference but I think that they would say it would make a difference.
 
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Most people don’t say it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved and those who do say it you wouldn’t expect them to say it to someone whose partner has died.
 
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Lilac

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People treat me differently and sometimes not in a good way. There can’t be any reason for it.

Being treated differently was the reason I wouldn’t work through my break one day.
 
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People treat me differently and sometimes not in a good way. There can’t be any reason for it.

Being treated differently was the reason I wouldn’t work through my break one day.
You're 'one of us', Lilac and we care about you here x
 
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Right now, I'm thinking fuck it! Maybe I should just go back to the smoke, live on the streets and go back on the drink and drugs. I mean what has a diagnosis and being sober ever done for me? Got me written off by society, twenty years on the sick and a crappy tiny flat that I'm too monged on medication to look after properly. Since I came off the drink I spend all day in here plugged into the internet playing games, at least when I was a drunk it killed off my anxiety to the point where I could go down the pub and interact with people without the internet. I also had Steph who was one of the most beautiful, sexy, kind and funny women I've ever met.

I had the best part of 17 years free from drugs apart from averaging a spliff once every five years at a party until this year and did it realy make me happy? No can't say it did. And long periods of sobriety from alcohol in that 17 years. Buddhism brought me some moments of peace but no real lasting satisfaction.

I used to think my Psychiatrist cared about me until that dumb nurse didn't order my orphenadrine and I refused my depot as a result and when I asked him for an orphenadrine prescription he refused, despite knowing that without it the side effects of the depot are so strong they prevent me from functioning. Now I realise he's just another power tripping professional.

Fuck it! Fuck the CMHT! Fuck the Lord Buddha! And fuck sobriety, I'm gonna buzz and enjoy my life before I'm too old. Fuck it! Here comes the meat, time to give in and roll with it. So long folks and thanks for all the fish!
 
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Worriedyin

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Right now, I'm thinking fuck it! Maybe I should just go back to the smoke, live on the streets and go back on the drink and drugs. I mean what has a diagnosis and being sober ever done for me? Got me written off by society, twenty years on the sick and a crappy tiny flat that I'm too monged on medication to look after properly. Since I came off the drink I spend all day in here plugged into the internet playing games, at least when I was a drunk it killed off my anxiety to the point where I could go down the pub and interact with people without the internet. I also had Steph who was one of the most beautiful, sexy, kind and funny women I've ever met.

I had the best part of 17 years free from drugs apart from averaging a spliff once every five years at a party until this year and did it realy make me happy? No can't say it did. And long periods of sobriety from alcohol in that 17 years. Buddhism brought me some moments of peace but no real lasting satisfaction.

I used to think my Psychiatrist cared about me until that dumb nurse didn't order my orphenadrine and I refused my depot as a result and when I asked him for an orphenadrine prescription he refused, despite knowing that without it the side effects of the depot are so strong they prevent me from functioning. Now I realise he's just another power tripping professional.

Fuck it! Fuck the CMHT! Fuck the Lord Buddha! And fuck sobriety, I'm gonna buzz and enjoy my life before I'm too old. Fuck it! Here comes the meat, time to give in and roll with it. So long folks and thanks for all the fish!
Imagine how bad it would be to be on the streets at this time of year. So cold!

Hope the urge to get wasted passes, hope you don't feel so frustrated with everything...
 
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Thanks, but I've lived on the streets at tis time of year and I have a sleeping bag rated down to -15 degrees celsius and I've made my decision.


 
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