diagnosis: schizophrenia with bipolar, schizoaffective.
my acute psychosis lasted for 1 month but cognitive symptoms lasted around 7 months. i became "weird" for a year. i was put on abilify at that time. it stopped the delusions but didn't do much for mania/cognitive symptoms so i was put on invega after abilify. second psychosis lasted around 3-6 months (i was off meds and it was still very mild when i got on meds again), it had mild hallucinations/delusions and paranoia + on and off hypomania/mania.
-hallucinations were of men watching me (faces, hallograms, real man), women talking to me
-paranoia was of a woman coming to get me and cops and hospital watching me through paint on the walls and a war between bad ghosts and angels and good ghosts
-delusions were that the police was going to put my entire family in jail except me, hospital was trying to save me and wanted a confession of schizophrenia and other things out of me, world was going to end soon, i was chosen to do something special (not going to tell exactly what because it's super embarrassing), doctors were giving me magic pills with placebo effect, a man was helping me navigate through the complex hospital system, a man was changing my thoughts through magic, there was no religion and no sins or virtues, there was a religion and God existed and evil existed too and that they were fighting around me, telepathic skills - i felt like people were answering me without me saying anything to them, i thought what was happening to me was exactly what happened to alice in wonderland, i thought the hospital was the wonderland, i also felt like there was a secret services organization that operated through the hospital/cameras and kept an eye on me and were watching everything i did (even in private--like in washroom/bedroom), i felt like the police sold my story to the newspaper and newspaper made comics out of it and i read that comics section regularly and laughed really hard because it all suited my situation perfectly (i was manic)
i was constantly having new delusions/hallucinations/paranoia, these^ were not constant. some lasted a few minutes and some lasted a few days. i had enough insight to tell myself that these were not real and not possible, except in the first 10 days. but throughout i had enough insight that i could tell something was seriously wrong with me and that schizophrenia was happening. i have schizoaffective, i have the insight, but i don't want to be on meds and think this was all caused by ghosts in childhood.