- Jul 7, 2017
I say t he same stupid thing over and over again and I’m sorry. I think suicide is going to get me no matter what I do. I’ve been teetering over the decision Rory was years and hoping I could tey help. I’m sick of not being in control. I’m tired of ppl yanking me back and forth. Even though I really don’t want that to happen and try to find every solution in my life I can’t help but think it’s coming. There’s so much shit going on in my life that I would rather die then live through it. Sometimes it’s just not worth it everyone in my life fakes caring about me. I’m just a toxin in my family’s life. I’m honestly more afraid to live then to die.