well that was a nasty couple of months

[Rosepoet]

second bout of severe depression just startin to lift its sooooo scary. like this heavy feverish darkness very very slooowley parts and when u hanging on by last thread of you last thread of sanity pressure eases. u might tink thats great but imagine you mind after months tinking u gonna die every minute....phew i got to go easy on myself. my mum had this and i never understood i just thought she was weak not bein there for me respect to everyone fighting this demon espect to u all u fighters........take it from me u are very very brrave x

 

[DELATEXT]

Help

Certainly we all fight the "quiet darkness" I hope you can see some relief recently I was on an express to hell, barely functioning my key worker saw me through it and I am seeing my Doctor tomorrow, I hope you can get yourself support they really help you cope with the harshness of depression !!
I also know how difficult it can be to face people and I hope you can in order to get assistance if you need it ??
If I can help any further please ask I will try to help if I can ??

 

[Rosepoet]

thanks for reply delatext u words are wise but i have alwaya been alone alone whilst mother raged against her mental issues and whilst in care and now alone again if i am recoverin i will ask for help but the panic has made me a recluse. i have to make a decision whether i can continue to care for my ten and eleven year olds. its not fare to let them sufferr. on srface everyone thinks i cope but i have been soooooo low. the fact i am here talkin is a sign i hope i am feelin better.

 

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Parents

You are very brave and I know how you feel my mother had severe mental illness, but please go to get help see a Doctor or phone any of the mental health charities I mention, remember this forum is always here for you
!!
You deserve assistance try to get over that hurdle please make things better for yourself and kids.