- Oct 17, 2018
Hey everyone, I was recently diagnosed with OCD I am 20 years old. When I was a kid I always would play with sticks and pencils and shake them while walking up and down the halls. I would make up stories while doing it knowing that it was all make believe. Shaking the stick made me think better I guess. I did this until I was around 15. I am a pretty normal person. Nothing socially wrong with me. My parents knew about me doing it and made me stop. I still would do it secretly. I didn’t really like doing it I knew it was weird and not normal, but I felt like an urge to do it all of the time to kinda escape into my own world. I knew it was all pretend. I eventually stopped doing it slowly but surely. Now a few months ago I started having harm intrusive thoughts out of nowhere and they gave me multiple panic attacks. I saw a doctor and I’ve been on buspirone and Citalopram. I’ve felt better but my brain has felt very funny. Like it did after I would shake the pencil or stick. I was wondering if this was my OCD. I would also count while doing it as well.