Wedding day blues

[lal10]

Hi guys

I think i've mentioned on here somewhere that I've got a family wedding coming up that I am not looking forward to. Social anxiety overload I don't know the bride at all, the groom (my cousin) very little and none of the guests except my grandparents who I would love to see but preferably not at a large wedding! Well it was bad enough knowing I had to go but now things have taken a turn for the worst, I have an exam at uni that day (next friday) which means I can't travel there with my parents and OH I'll have to drive from Cheshire to Derby for my exam (that's bad enough as it is!) then drive from Derby to a little village outside of northampton during rush hour on the M1 on my own, first time i've driven any real distance on a motorway (I only passed my test end of october last year), and driving when I'm anxious is a massive no no, I am aware I'm a liability so never do it but have no choice now. Plus I will get there on my own, will be late for the evening do and generally rushed and stressed, if I get there at all as I have no idea where i'm going, no satnav and no one with me to navigate. I can't even bare the thought of driving there alone never mind turning up late to the party, walking in and not knowing where anyone I know is It's going to turn out one of 3 ways; I don't manage to even get there, I get there and have to try and hide the fact that i'll feel like dying or i'll end up losing it. I hope I get struck down with something contagious so I don't have to go at all!!

 

[pinkprincess]

Bless you I really do feel for you. At the moment I dread any kid of social gathering even something as simple as having friends round I try and put off but last Saturday I took the plunge and went through with it even though I really diod not want to...... I aren't going to lie and say it was the best night of my life :O) but I was proud of myself for doing it.
Good luck with your exam and the party x

 

[lal10]

Thanks pinkprincess!

Well done for being so brave!

I think I could cope better if it was just one thing at a time but as usual fate loves to stick it to me big time!! It's the thought of being away from home for the night too, if I could get it all done and go home after it would help but instead I have to attempt the journey home the next morning, just hope I'm up to it or i'll have to pull a sicky and get someone else to drive me!