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confused-123
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- Apr 8, 2010
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Had such a bad day at work I just got so nervous and unedged that I vomited, but I made myself vomit. It seems like i don't feel any better until I've hurt myself in some way, like inducing vomiting, drinking, smoking, cutting etc
I just feel like everyone hates me when I do the least little thing, like I can't do anything right, somedays I truely hate myself. I almost cried when I was leaving work today, luckily I managed not to tho once I left I was straight for the cigarettes and beer. I haven't cut tho today, I did yesterday
I try to stop but sometimes it's so hard, I just want... to not mess up I feel like everything I touch turns to shit. My brother recently tried to kill himself so I think maybe I might just be dealing with that, but these feeelings have been with me for years. All I ever want is company but I feel like everyone hates me at times. Eugh I need another beer 
I just feel like everyone hates me when I do the least little thing, like I can't do anything right, somedays I truely hate myself. I almost cried when I was leaving work today, luckily I managed not to tho once I left I was straight for the cigarettes and beer. I haven't cut tho today, I did yesterday

