Was so nervous I vomited

[confused-123]

Had such a bad day at work I just got so nervous and unedged that I vomited, but I made myself vomit. It seems like i don't feel any better until I've hurt myself in some way, like inducing vomiting, drinking, smoking, cutting etc
I just feel like everyone hates me when I do the least little thing, like I can't do anything right, somedays I truely hate myself. I almost cried when I was leaving work today, luckily I managed not to tho once I left I was straight for the cigarettes and beer. I haven't cut tho today, I did yesterday I try to stop but sometimes it's so hard, I just want... to not mess up I feel like everything I touch turns to shit. My brother recently tried to kill himself so I think maybe I might just be dealing with that, but these feeelings have been with me for years. All I ever want is company but I feel like everyone hates me at times. Eugh I need another beer

 

[starfish]

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have you told a doctor how you feel? he or she would be able to help you. ask for help, it sounds like you could do with some . maybe some counselling. it helped me.you can use this site to get your feelings out. take care.

 

[confused-123]

have you told a doctor how you feel? he or she would be able to help you. ask for help, it sounds like you could do with some . maybe some counselling. it helped me.you can use this site to get your feelings out. take care.

I went back today but she can't do much until I get my psyc assesment which will hopefully be in a month or something. Eugh just fed up