wanting to go back to using drugs again...

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heres my situation: i am currently on parole so i cannot drink or use drugs, but damn here lately i have wanted to so bad...like just hit the fuck it button & do it then let them send me to rehab again idk. i'm so lonely, bored, restless & anxious. i am also very depressed. any advice please?
 
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well i love to drink but as far as drugs go i was hooked on shooting pain pills, mostly oxycodone etc & sometimes heroin...
 
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heres my situation: i am currently on parole so i cannot drink or use drugs, but damn here lately i have wanted to so bad...like just hit the fuck it button & do it then let them send me to rehab again idk. i'm so lonely, bored, restless & anxious. i am also very depressed. any advice please?
Have you tried going to AA,NA,etc meetings,any 12 step meetings?Have you tried seeing a therapist to help you through this?Call friends(that don't use)?

Are you in treatment for your addictions?

Are you sure they'll send you to rehab again?Is there any chance you might go to prison instead?
 
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i have tried the whole 12 step thing which i have to say does not really seem to get me anywhere. it works for some i know b/c i've seen it happen, but idk. i go to classes for my addiction, those are only 6 mos & i have to say i will miss them when they are gone! maybe i can find some womens groups, dual diagnosis hopefully. Yes my parole officer told me that i would have to go back to rehab if i continued to use, but after that yes it would be back to prison.
 
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well i love to drink but as far as drugs go i was hooked on shooting pain pills, mostly oxycodone etc & sometimes heroin...
Why would you shoot oxycodone? No one does that. It has 90% oral bio-availability, you can just eat it xD
 
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i have tried the whole 12 step thing which i have to say does not really seem to get me anywhere. it works for some i know b/c i've seen it happen, but idk. i go to classes for my addiction, those are only 6 mos & i have to say i will miss them when they are gone! maybe i can find some womens groups, dual diagnosis hopefully. Yes my parole officer told me that i would have to go back to rehab if i continued to use, but after that yes it would be back to prison.
Are you on subs to help your addiction?

I have watched one of my kids go through what you're going through.Sadly,he always ends up giving in to the urges to use and ends up right back at the beginning and either in rehab or prison.It seems to be an endless cycle and I wish there was a way I could stop/help him.

I wish I had advice for you.The only one that can change things is you.I do hope you find some womens groups and don't end up going back to prison.I do have compassion for addicts though and I do wish you the best.
 
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^ There's something called OUD (opioid use disorder) where their doctor can prescribe injectable opioids to them. I know how it sounds but it's better then them getting it off the streets xD
 
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^ There's something called OUD (opioid use disorder) where their doctor can prescribe injectable opioids to them. I know how it sounds but it's better then them getting it off the streets xD
My son does have OUD and Suboxone or Vivitrol are the routes taken where we live.
 
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My son does have OUD and Suboxone or Vivitrol are the routes taken where we live.
So no Opana or Hydromorphone HP50? Haha.

Wow.

Suboxone is a bit better than a slap in the face.
 
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Actually Suboxone works very well except for the fact he has to make the decision every day to either take the Sub or use. Vivitrol is better since it's a monthly injection but tends to wear off towards the end of the month.
 
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& actually here a lot of ppl do that
Ya I know, I knew some personally. They were pro shooters, were using microfilters to filter out the pill juice every single time, using clean needles every single time. Until they got PE and died, and at the autopsy, the doctor pulled plastic from their lungs.

Those who developed a method to shoot the new Antabuse OC80s they all got PE. Do you know that there's 18 different polymers in an OC80, each chemically designed to jellify in a certain pH range?
 
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Ya I know, I knew some personally. They were pro shooters, were using microfilters to filter out the pill juice every single time, using clean needles every single time. Until they got PE and died, and at the autopsy, the doctor pulled plastic from their lungs.

Those who developed a method to shoot the new Antabuse OC80s they all got PE. Do you know that there's 18 different polymers in an OC80, each chemically designed to jellify in a certain pH range?
yes
 
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Prescription medication is also considered "drugs". According to Websters-Merriam, substance equates to what? What's worse?