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Hello. So I am very nervous and embarrassed by this and its taken me many years to admit to it. Nevermind contemplate letting it out of my head and writing it down.
I will give a little back info which may be relevant. I have suffered with childhood emotional neglect and I always felt my parents weren't there for me on far too many occasions when all I needed was love and affection and comforted.
So ever since I was about 15/16 when I was at school I used to have thoughts of going to save someone and getting hurt in the process and then one of my favourite teachers coming and helping me.
The teachers were all female and it wasn't in a sexual way. I always felt like my dad and brother didn't show me any emotional support and in fact made me feel like I shouldn't talk about my feelings. I do find it hard to talk to men in general (sorry to all the men out there, this is nothing personal and I know my dad and brother don't represent the entire male population).
I also felt like I wanted hugs from certain teachers. Again they were female. I didn't ever act on these feelings but I did like that I could talk and build a good relationship with them.
Any help, insight, personal experience or general comments would be greatly appreciated.
TIA
I will give a little back info which may be relevant. I have suffered with childhood emotional neglect and I always felt my parents weren't there for me on far too many occasions when all I needed was love and affection and comforted.
So ever since I was about 15/16 when I was at school I used to have thoughts of going to save someone and getting hurt in the process and then one of my favourite teachers coming and helping me.
The teachers were all female and it wasn't in a sexual way. I always felt like my dad and brother didn't show me any emotional support and in fact made me feel like I shouldn't talk about my feelings. I do find it hard to talk to men in general (sorry to all the men out there, this is nothing personal and I know my dad and brother don't represent the entire male population).
I also felt like I wanted hugs from certain teachers. Again they were female. I didn't ever act on these feelings but I did like that I could talk and build a good relationship with them.
Any help, insight, personal experience or general comments would be greatly appreciated.
TIA