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sallimae76

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When I reach my goals, I lose interest quickly. All I really want to do is eat, sleep, and watch TV. I can't afford to do that as I have to work to support myself. I am just so disinterested in life. What can I do? I just try to hide my depression at work and I do the bare minimum.
 
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Place your goals higher

Get professional help

Find a purpose for living

Help other people

TV is pure evil, imo. It promotes violence, alcohol use and drug use. It applauds arrogance, envy and bitterness. It traps you with nudity and false images of lives without everyday problems.

Read books by Charles Bukowski
 
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TheHeartHasAVoice

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When I reach my goals, I lose interest quickly. All I really want to do is eat, sleep, and watch TV. I can't afford to do that as I have to work to support myself. I am just so disinterested in life. What can I do? I just try to hide my depression at work and I do the bare minimum.
Take time out to think. Have a break. Maybe there is a lot on your chest that needs to be processed. Sometimes it feels like that when you are overworked etc. Make any healthy changes that make your moods better and try to keep doing things like that. Listen to your heart maybe it has a lot to say that is being ignored. Let go of anything that is making things worse.

When you are stuck and sick, change is healthy and liberating, change brings peace even if it is small.
 
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TheHeartHasAVoice

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Oh yeah and find your purpose! When there is no true meaning attached to actions the heart feels empty and there are attempts to fill it with things that don't give it it's right.
 
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When I reach my goals, I lose interest quickly. All I really want to do is eat, sleep, and watch TV. I can't afford to do that as I have to work to support myself. I am just so disinterested in life. What can I do? I just try to hide my depression at work and I do the bare minimum.
sorry youre feeling so badly sallimae76....would a stint in a psych hospital help you at all.
 
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sallimae76

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I have been in mental hospitals before, it does not help. Therapy does not help. Nothing helps. Just tired. Uninterested in life.
 
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Take time out for yourself away from everything n just be alone. I'm in the same situation atm and was close to giving up but my partner wouldn't let me. He's pushing me to get help, giving me support and letting me know its ok to step back & have a night to myself without any distractions/constant msgs from people. Lose yourself in something you enjoy n it'll help you to relax
 
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You say nothing helps, but I've never heard of a case where that was entirely true.
 
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sallimae76

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You say nothing helps, but I've never heard of a case where that was entirely true.
I have gone through periods where I have been mildly interested in life. But mostly I just do the bare minimum to survive. I am an attorney so I had some work ethic. But if it were up to me, I would sit in my room all day, watching television 📺. I care about nothing. I only love my elderly mom who is 82.
 
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That's great. You should take good care of her.
She's in good health and takes care of herself! I keep my depression a secret from her. It would hurt her to know.
 
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She's in good health and takes care of herself! I keep my depression a secret from her. It would hurt her to know.
Yes, but imo, one should care for their mother. Help them, keep company to them, make them happy. It would give a purpose.
 
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Yes, but imo, one should care for their mother. Help them, keep company to them, make them happy. It would give a purpose.
She lives in a retirement community in Florida. I live in NY. If she needs me, I will be there. We are taking a trip to Israel together in May 2021.
 
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Prycejosh1987

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When I reach my goals, I lose interest quickly. All I really want to do is eat, sleep, and watch TV. I can't afford to do that as I have to work to support myself. I am just so disinterested in life. What can I do? I just try to hide my depression at work and I do the bare minimum.
Find a good job that stems from a hobby or practice you do. Being independent is a good things and is worth a lot and it shows who you are.
 
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TheHeartHasAVoice

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Life used to be very family driven. A few generations ago it was normal. The family unit was strong and the strength of communities and households. I remember when I was younger we had no internet and we would just lose ourselves in socialising. Computers changed everything. Video games etc. I can understand the persons concern for their elderly mother. Growing up with someone who loved you like no other human loved you, they would be missed dearly if they became distant. Nothing can replace love.
 
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