- Jun 18, 2020
Today I realised the long term impact that voices have had on my life. Chronic auditory hallucination mean your sense of shame becomes completely warped. What would have shamed you no longer matters. I can't remember the last time i felt ashamed that my neighbours would hear or see something embarassing. I'm so used to laughing at my self over everything. I just only know read up about what shame really is. It something people see visually and notice when the audience around them may perceive their action in a negative way. But, my audience is always inside my own mind. I don't think I really rationalise that people outside my head do see as well. So, today I realised i've forgotten what shame is really like. I keep on ignoring it. Anything i may hear, could be a voice. I'm it's like that for most of us! I feel really sad about this. I thought the voices even though there barely there and i pleasantly let them reside in the back of my mind where not really causing harm. Seams it's still there, being a pest and a curse!