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Voices haven’t been so bad soo..

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Hi Gothic,

I am so pleased you are gradually getting there now.

That is a good picture, only I can't figure what it's meant to be?

You;re right, though it might need a touch of colour.


You could do drawing as more of a hobbie for you, and that, will the process of drawing take your mind off your mental health problems.


Have a good evening.
 
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I love the flowers and butterflies, you're really very good at that.

If you'd rather just forget about your voices for the time being that's fine please don't answer if it bothers you but I was wondering how you now feel about your voices after seeing this post you made in December?
I’m struggling tonight. The voices are telling me to harm myself and if I don’t, they will kill my cat and dog and torture my partner.

They are so powerful I don’t know how to fight back.

I took my nightly meds before coming to bed but they are screaming about how I’ve been brainwashed into taking them and that the GP makes me take them so she can hear my thoughts. That they are pure poison.
Do they still threaten you and tell you your GP wants to hear your thoughts and poison you or because you don't believe those things have they given up and accepted you'll be on medication for quite a while.

Mine is like a dog with a bone, he refuses to give up talking even though he has nothing meaningful to say, he just repeats my name frequently (although not as much as the 40-60 times a day that he used to say it) and he swears at me when he's not begging for things he can't have like me talking to him or coming off medication which he used to tell me was poison too.
 
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Hi guys.

Natalie, it’s a few flowers and two butterflies. It will be a lot easier to see with colour.

Linus. Thank you very much 😊 I’m not confident with my drawing so it’s nice when others say it’s good 😊

NWiddi, the voices have just been a lot easier to manage. I’m not sure if that’s the medication or if it’s just improved by itself. They are still saying that meds are poison, people can hear my thoughts etc and although I believe them I can/try to ignore them.

Hope everyone is doing okay tonight. X
 
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Hi Gothic,Rocker,

I'm fine, very well, on my preferred now once more med dose.

As i just vouched else where on the site, I've got a GP appointment in a weeks' time, to try and ressurrerct the dose back up slightly, a much better dose might have its annoying side affects, in the main controls the main ailments better.

I always liked to have cross stitched needleworked flowers, and butterflies. So I do like i realise now your picture very much so.


I have had a right performance, these past couple of weeks concerning beyond my control, not my fault, not workable freedom pass. So I have the headache now, to chase up renewal, in time for when renewal date ends, they annoyingly deactivated my account for Freedom Pass.

i was very irate and annoyed last week, much better feeling tonight though.


Have a good evening,


Best regards.
 
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@GothicRocker, it took two years and several changes in medication to finally make my voices go away completely, so don't lose heart - there is hope and things seem to be improving for you.
 
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Hi GothicRocker,


It's been a while, I am just touching base, to check see how you are coping and hopefully, that your medication is now helping you?

How is your drawing hobbie coming along?


Best Regards,


Natalie.
 
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Hi there. Honestly? I’m really struggling. Charlie (my angel friend who only I can see as he is a messenger from heaven) has been encouraging me to kill myself so I can take my place with the gods. He’s been comforting me about the process of death.

The voices have been pretty relentless too. I don’t know what to do.

I don’t think the meds change is working. I’m going to see my GP on Monday and tell her what Charlie is saying.

I’m not doing too good 😭
 
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Hi there. Honestly? I’m really struggling. Charlie (my angel friend who only I can see as he is a messenger from heaven) has been encouraging me to kill myself so I can take my place with the gods. He’s been comforting me about the process of death.

The voices have been pretty relentless too. I don’t know what to do.

I don’t think the meds change is working. I’m going to see my GP on Monday and tell her what Charlie is saying.

I’m not doing too good 😭
I dont think you should listen to Charlie then , Charlie seems like hes come off his rocker.
 
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What makes you think the med change isn't working? Because you still hear voices?

My medication has never gotten rid of my voice but it does make his volume go down to a more tolerable level and takes the stress out of hearing him.

My voice wanted me to kill myself at one point when he was pretending the be the voice of God, I refused and told him to do it himself, he said fine and he'll do it in my sleep. That was over three years ago now and I'm still here. He's since stopped talking about my death but I know being on medication makes him feel like death would be better than the life he's got now.

Our time in this life is short as it is without you ending it prematurely, I don't think Charlie is the friend you think he is and if you didn't think the same on some level I don't think you'd be here now talking about him, you'd have done what he asked you to do already.

So please don't listen to voices who want you dead, if he was truly a friend he'd want you to live your best life possible. If it exists then heaven can wait.
 
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Hi Got hic,

Might I suggest, and that you need help urgently, i gather that you are on line, call up the crisis team for your borough, they will be attched to the Community Mental health team, or, from them, an on call out of hours on duty doctor, you need to be seen quickly, I am just wondering, whether if the med dose needs to be increased more, now if you and please do contact the crisis team, t hey will reassess you, and take the relavant steps f rom there.

How about if you couild some more of your brliiant drawing, might that help in the meantime?


I am sorry to hear how you are presently.


I am on med, so that my hearing voices/hallucinations are kept down and at bay and what's more, certainly 25ml, gone back to, works very and really well.


Have a good evening,


Try to relax, or d raw if that might help you,


Best Regards.
 
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Hi all of you who have taken the time to reply.

I think the mediation increase is finally starting to take effect. My voices haven't been as loud the past two days. I took advice on board about how they act like toddlers throwing a temper tantrum and to treat them as such. It really helps to think of them in that way. I'm just relieved that they have gone a bit quieter.

Charlie is still encouraging me to kill myself but I feel a bit stronger to be able to ignore him because the voices are quieter.

I keep feeling spiders crawling all over me though and that is freaking me out. I also saw a few ghosts yesterday. One stepped out in front of our while my other half was driving and it frightened me. That was when Charlie started telling me that they were trying to get me to the afterlife so I can help them as they are lost.

I had an appointment through the post today for an in depth mental health assessment next month. I'm a bit scared because I'm not sure what goes on in it.

I dunno, swings and roundabouts I guess. Thanks again for replying everyone.
 
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