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Voices and self esteem

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Twokiwisandabanana

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When I was a child I had a narcissitic parent,
Physical emotional verbal psychological abuse.
But it was the chipping away at my self esteem the your stupid your useless you can't even... Useless freeloader your pathetic, wiped out my self esteem stocks.
And now as an adult the voices tend to say the same things.
I have been taught to put others before myself too,
To make cups of tea to not Rock the boat.
That's made me hVe anger issues from having to repress everything.
So when I think about doing something for myself I always think other people are more important and more worthy than me.
I am going to have to re programme all of this like affirmations even though I don't eve believe in them my councelor does and she sounds like she knows what she's doing.
I've got some hope back.
 
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seriouslydisturbed

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Having a councelor sounds like your doing the right thing. I want to try working with someone on my problems. Do you take meds, just that you said you have voices or is it the meds don't work? Do you get delusions?
 
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Twokiwisandabanana

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Yeah I take seroquel at night it knocks me out for 12 hours. Yeah I feel like I'm being watched all the time it gets so old.
Like I have no privacy.
And a general feeling that people are out to get you.
To be honest with you I wake up after 12 hours of sleep with a headache thinking what the hell is this doing to my brain.
 
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seriouslydisturbed

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How much seroquel do you take? I use to take 200mg years ago on a morning but it didn't have that effect. I was on respiradone before that and gained a ton of weight.
 
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Twokiwisandabanana

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take 400 mg at night it's XL so it last onto the next day
also take citralopram, lyrica and thyroxine all these meds have given me and under active thyroid.
I've been on rispiradone before it was not bad.
aLways say In regards to schizophrenia and meds Id rather be chubby and sane than skinny and psychotic
 
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