In concentration camps, they used to torture people in, unbelievable, ways. Some have survived and they have stories to tell, very, very, interesting stories.
At one point, in torture, the amount of pain crosses a threshould, of consciousness, when they finally, finally, "accept" it 1000%, and at that very moment, the most curious thing happens. Instead of pain, they feel bliss, they start glowing.
You have two options, you can fight it all your life, keep on feeling pain, after a few months there wont even be meds for you to block it out, or you could accept the situation 100% and surrender to the source of all things pain and pleasure and good and bad and this and that and the moment you do that, you will know what you truly are, then we can play together
Yes I already know and have experienced that so I don't have to imagine it, but what my voice did to me was tantamount to sexual abuse. Pleasure yes but unwanted.
So you view yourself as some sort of "prophet". In my experience everyone who claims to be a "prophet" is a false one.
This makes me think a lot and it makes sense to me. Sorry that you have been through this. My pain used to be excruciating as well with hallucinations that demons were going inside of me and making me better. Some of them were even sleeping in me. At the time I really believed it because all my pains we're going along with the stories. My recovery from risperidone was the worst. Now I tend to think I am well but they know how to manipulate bodies and cause pain and that is what they do. I used to be on pain meds. I loved them but my back got better and stopped hurting me so I stopped them. The voices have been giving me excruciating pain and asking me if I want to hey meds...my experience with voices and medicine is they sometimes block the high.
It really is.
They did the pleasure before, mostly on sexual pleasures then they switched to pain.
