In concentration camps, they used to torture people in, unbelievable, ways. Some have survived and they have stories to tell, very, very, interesting stories.
At one point, in torture, the amount of pain crosses a threshould, of consciousness, when they finally, finally, "accept" it 1000%, and at that very moment, the most curious thing happens. Instead of pain, they feel bliss, they start glowing.
You have two options, you can fight it all your life, keep on feeling pain, after a few months there wont even be meds for you to block it out, or you could accept the situation 100% and surrender to the source of all things pain and pleasure and good and bad and this and that and the moment you do that, you will know what you truly are, then we can play together