Viscous Cycle & Confused

[elouise11]

I’ve just been diagnosed with atypical anorexia. I’ve been told I pose risk to myself as I’m close to being ‘underweight’ and diagnosed as anorexic.
I’ve got in a fixation of starving myself and was finding my only happiness in life - in my weight loss. But now I am starting to feel so ugly, my boobs are shrinking, my collar bones stick out. I still feel like my stomach and legs are too big. I’m scared if I eat then I’ll gain weight and then I’ll be fat everywhere again. I enjoy the control I have of not eating, this brings me happiness and a feeling of success. How can I be happy with my appearance? I hate myself

 

[Desire less]

Sorry to hear your struggling in this way.
I hope you one day can let your goal go of having the perfect appearance.
Think it gives more stress than what your looking for.

 

[katwomyn3]

Have you been able to go to doctor or a specialist? You seem very self aware and you are honest about what you are feeling. Perhaps it is time to go to someone who can give you better perspective.