- Jun 28, 2014
Hello everyone, it's my first time on a forum. I kind of feel silly...don't know where to start or what to say. I guess I should start by saying I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember. Even as a child I felt weird or off, I never felt like I belonged anywhere or that anyone cared about me. My happiest moments were when my mom and dad were still together, but after that everything fell apart; I think I was 6 years old. My mom & I lived in many different places with family members or she worked as a live-in housemaid (this was in Brazil); so I guess I became anxious due to the lack of stability. My mother often left me with friends or family members when she had to go to work and I remember the agony & fear that she wouldn't come back for me; also whoever was taking care of me was not caring to me or nice. I remember crying myself to sleep waiting for my mom to come back. When I was 10 years old, my mom & I moved to America to live with my sister (12 years older than me) that I've never met & her husband & four children. In my mind this was going to finally turn my life around, little did I know my sister's husband was extremely controlling and very abusive to my sister in every way. To make the story short we (my mom & I) were controlled by them four years, felt like a prison; we didn't go anywhere, didn't know anyone & had no money. Eventually we moved out and our only worries were finances, but we no longer had anyone dictating our lives. Well, that's a glimpse of my life & root to some of my issues & GAD. Thank you for reading and please share your story.