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Verging On A Breakdown..

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Survive Vin

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Sighhh Hi everyone, hope everyone's keeping their spirits up as Christmas is coming.. This is going to be a bit of a rant so I apologize is advance.

Lately it seems like the world is trying to kill me, now some people hearing that might think "that's a bit overdramatic" if I could tell you all my stress in this post we'd be here all day. This year I've learned a LOT about myself, and I'm definitely a lot stronger than I ever thought I was... start with a positive as they always say. Now...it seems like everything is trying to finish me off. My girlfriend's suicidal and I had to call the police the other day when she said she was going to kill herself. She now wants to go abroad to see her kids for Christmas and I can't come. Already enough to stress me to heaven and back, especially as she says she won't be able to handle the flight back without me so basically we're over. Basically told me she plans on killing herself after Christmas. But then!! Therapists.... doctors....they seem so useless... My doctor today told me my anxiety was so bad he could sign me off as disabled for life. But even though he said that, he also gave me the shortest possible time on my fit note so I'll have to be down there a couple of days before Christmas. I have an appointment with the Job Centre Friday.... All this with he miscarriage still looming over us....

It's all too much. I genuinely don't know if I can survive all this.... I just needed to vent. And for there to be somewhere that if I can't make it then my family might one day know how hard I tried...

If anyone has any good ideas I'd love to hear them, right now I'm wondering about getting myself sectioned...Thanks...
 
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Seany53

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agreed about doctors. Most are absolute insensitive dicks. I really don't know what to say about your girlfired mate other than talking to her more. I'm reading what you wrote again and again but cant comes up with an answer. But you survived thus far and you said yourself that you are stronger than you ever thought before. Keep it up mate. I can't imagine what you must be going through. I'm new here too and welcome you here bud
 
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Sorry bout the new here TOO part. Didn't see you were a member since May.
 
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:welcome: to the Forum. I'm sorry your girlfriend is driving you mad, to the point where you want to runaway to the hospital. The hospital is nice in theory but when you get there it's not a very nice place and you may find it to be just more stress. Then you'll be wanting to get OUT. Try to create a safe and quiet space at home; do nurturing things like a hot bath with candles and soft music.

I taught my bf to take baths instead of taking the pills the doctor gave him. I didn't want him to be stuck on pills. He deals with his anxiety much better now.

You mentioned a miscarriage. Was that recent ?? You must still be sad and depressed about that. My mother died last month and I've had feelings about that also.

The point is, take care of yourself. Somebody else, some doctor, some pill isn't necessary if you take care of number one; YOU. ;)
 
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Survive Vin

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:welcome: to the Forum. I'm sorry your girlfriend is driving you mad, to the point where you want to runaway to the hospital. The hospital is nice in theory but when you get there it's not a very nice place and you may find it to be just more stress. Then you'll be wanting to get OUT. Try to create a safe and quiet space at home; do nurturing things like a hot bath with candles and soft music.

I taught my bf to take baths instead of taking the pills the doctor gave him. I didn't want him to be stuck on pills. He deals with his anxiety much better now.

You mentioned a miscarriage. Was that recent ?? You must still be sad and depressed about that. My mother died last month and I've had feelings about that also.

The point is, take care of yourself. Somebody else, some doctor, some pill isn't necessary if you take care of number one; YOU. ;)
The miscarriage was in September....so it still feels pretty fresh. Especially since this Christmas would have been the last Christmas without our baby girl... I'm so sorry about your mum, I hope you're okay.

I think what you said is right and I need to try and take care of myself... last night I was so close to ending everything, I love my gf to death and her leaving me at Christmas is going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with in my life. She promised me she would come back....but now she says she's not strong enough too....Thank you for the advice, I'm going to try my best to just take each day as it comes.... though what I think I need is a few drinks, a spliff AND a hot bath lol.
 
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Stupid childish thought, but why don't you go there after her and surprise her and maybe even save her. And yeah that's what I have figured. It's really only me that can save me now. No amount of pills or docs can change that
 
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Survive Vin

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Stupid childish thought, but why don't you go there after her and surprise her and maybe even save her. And yeah that's what I have figured. It's really only me that can save me now. No amount of pills or docs can change that
Money, I haven't got nearly enough for the flight.... and I have horrific anxiety as I mentioned before so I couldn't do that even if I did have the money. It's a mental flight, like 36 hours with stop overs and shit... I can't handle the average 2 hour flight to Spain at the best of times.... I'm screwed really, but nice thought
 
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sucks not being able to help you out man:cry: wish i could come over there and hold both of yous:sorry:
 
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