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LexiDoll

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I'm getting a strong urge again, I tried watching tv, playing games, playing with my pets, going on Facebook and Twitter. Nothing is working, nothing takes my mind off it.

It's been three months since my last time, and my scars are permanent from the times I've done it before. I'm such a failure. I strive for perfection but leave permanent marks on my body. I'll never be perfect.

I need my therapy to start soon. I really really need it to hurry up.
God, I hate this so much.
 
maybe.shes.a.wildflower

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I got urges to I found an impkement. The criais are ringing soon but i told them I'm going to drink and they let me go!!
 

MarlieeB

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Both of you stay safe and do NOT cave to the urges!

BlueFlower please stop drinking. It seems to me that it's making you worse hun.

xxx
 
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Thats why i am drunking I los control!
 

MarlieeB

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But the worse thing to do is to lose control, especially if crisis team hears how drunk you are.

xxx
 
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I met him tofay and told him my plans?!! He didnt stop me
 

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They may not have thought you would do it but now you have and on the phone hopefully they will help in some way just please stop drinking

xxx
 
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They said half 8 theyve not called :( told my rl friend to stay away I'm such a failure :(
 

MarlieeB

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Sorry they seem to be running late. Do you think if they don't ring soon that you could ring them?

xxx
 
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Its only a scratch I'll live!!
 

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It's just so hard, Marlie. I try and then something knocks me back into severe depression again. :( xxx
I know it is. I am the same. It's a horrible game this life is isn't it? It's a case of with some help trying to figure how to manage this game.

xxx
 
LexiDoll

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I know it is. I am the same. It's a horrible game this life is isn't it? It's a case of with some help trying to figure how to manage this game.

xxx
Yeah, I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow so I'm going to bring this up and see if they can help. :(

I'm sorry for being such a burden :( xxx
 

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You have nothing to be sorry for.

Keep posting, you aren't a burden

xxx
 
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