- Jun 5, 2017
Not sure I have BPD, but have quite a bit of the symptoms. Most extreme seems to be that my sense of self is extremely unstable. It's like I need to attach my identity constantly to things and/or cater to whatever I think other people want me to be or else I don't really know how to interact. Now this has lessened in recent years especially those more self destructive sides where I would do anything to align myself with an ideal or simply gain someones approval. Rejection or abandonment always hits me like a cold dagger through the heart and can cripple me with agonizing insecurity, anger and anxiety for long periods of time. Even though I've come a long way in the last few years navigating even the most basic human interactions can be quite the rollercoaster for me. Embarrassment, anger and insecurity seem to pop up a bit more than what I would say is within the norm.