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Laputa
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I have ADHD and undiagnosed depression. I dropped out of high school, after years of never doing schoolwork. I've lost contact with all of my friends after not making an attempt to reconnect. I don't have a job. My room is a hellhole wreck. My computers hdd broke months ago. I've felt this way for years but I've been so uncomfortable talking about this. I told my mother but sometimes I feel like she doesn't understand. I've tried therapy once and I've never felt better getting it off my chest. But therapy can be so expensive and there is no money for it. Sometimes I feel like suicide really is the answer, maybe then I wouldn't be a leech anymore. Even then it's not like I would have to guts to do it.
What do I even do from here? I have no education. I have debilitating depression and ADHD. There is a pandemic and I live smack dab in the middle of a neighborhood of antimaskers. I feel uncomfortable being outside, and when I do go outside I get anxious.
My step-dad hates me. He's said it straight to my face, that I'm just a failure. All I want is everything to be over. Sometimes I wish that there was something other than suicide that could do that.
I've truly given up and I don't know what to do.
What do I even do from here? I have no education. I have debilitating depression and ADHD. There is a pandemic and I live smack dab in the middle of a neighborhood of antimaskers. I feel uncomfortable being outside, and when I do go outside I get anxious.
My step-dad hates me. He's said it straight to my face, that I'm just a failure. All I want is everything to be over. Sometimes I wish that there was something other than suicide that could do that.
I've truly given up and I don't know what to do.