- Jun 4, 2020
Hi. I promised myself that I wouldn’t post again today, but I really need to talk about this because I’d like to get some help and tips on how to get over this. Before I start, this may be triggering to some and this is includes some serious things. This is very shameful for me to post and talk about, and let me specify that I don’t find any of these funny or cute at all, despite what my mind is telling me. So I find myself uncontrollably laughing, smiling, and smirking at bad times. I have no clue why it happens and it bothers me so much. Yesterday my family was telling me that someone they work with has a son and he got seriously injured as he crashed his car. When they told me this I almost laughed and I started to smile. When I noticed it I covered my mouth so they wouldn’t think I’m weird. I felt so bad for it because I didn’t find it funny or anything. Then just today I was watching a video about celebrities getting mad, and this ex-celebrity was in it. It was revealed later on that this celebrity was not nice to children, and they sexually assaulted them (and I’m sure we all know what I mean) I thought about it because whenever I see this celebrity that’s all that comes to mind, and when I did I think it happened yet again. I think I smiled/smirked at it, but I don’t remember. I don’t find this funny or anything at all! What if I did smile or smirk at it?! What does that say about me?! It’s like my mind does it because it knows it drives me insane. I hate when this happens and I don’t know how to get over it. Has this happened to anyone else before? If not that’s okay too, I just really want some help with this.. I feel so absolutely horrible. Thank-you for reading and I’m sorry this was so long.